Caius's Mate

Fifty Nine

I walked down to the kitchen. I saw Aro there. 

"Aro," I moved to him.

"You have three second before..."

I cut him off  knowing it could've been a stupid move. "Look in my head," I said and held out my hand towards him for him to take and look though my mind.

He narrowed his eyes. Taking my hand. "Friday," he said to me.

I nodded. "Im going to start new medications. And therapy with Carlisle. Which you saw. But... I just want to sit down and hash it out. Im tired of fighting. I did wrong, and Im admitting to that. But lets talk and stop hating each other," I said.

"Friday," he said again his tone softer. "My office," he said. "No one comes," he sighs. "No guards, just you and me," he said.

I nodded I became nervous knowing he could easily hurt me. "Marcus will keep Caius distracted and so will Carlisle," I said.

He nodded.

I looked down.

He touched my shoulder and then left.

I felt extremely overwhelmed. I sat down for a bit not even able to make something. "Hey," Demetri came over.

"Hey," I whispered.

"Izzy what did you do?" He asked knowing the look on my face.

"Possibly something extraordinary stupid," I said.

"Did you piss off Aro again... hes going to kill you," he said.

"No. Im going to be talking to him alone on Friday. No one is allowed to come," I whispered.

"Izzy do you know how stupid that is. He already hates you and now you are going to talk to him alone? Do you have no common sense?" he grabbed my arm.

"Demetri," I whispered. Those words hurt.  I pushed his hand away from me.

"Izzy I didn't mean it like..."

"Let me take a walk. I need to be alone unless you want me to be more stupid," I said.

"Izzy you know I didn't mean it like that," he said.

I ignored him not wantng to be around him or anyone. "Demetri leave me alone," I turned around smacking him hard.

"Izzy..." he said.

"Im going outside. I will be back in an hour," I said.

He groaned at it but let me leave. I was about to step outside when I felt a hand on my shoulder "Demetri I told you I want to be alone. For one hour," I said.

"Im not Demetri," a male said. I looked over at him not recognizing him at all.

"Who are you. Please I just want out side for an hour Im going to snap at someone and I dont want..." I began to say.

"I wanted to apologize," he said to me cutting me off

"A-apologize?" I asked taking a step back. "Are you going to hurt me?" I whispered.

"No no," he said touching my cheek.

"I apologize for killing your fiancé and your friends," he said. "If I knew thats what it was and you were Caius's mate. I wouldn't have done it," he said touching my cheek.

My eyes widened and I moved back tears in my eyes pain going throughout my body. "G-get away from me," I backed up. "Dont touch me," my breath fast.

"I just want to apologize," he said looking down removing his hand.

I backed into the wall. Why couldn't I get a single day of peace. I cant get one day.

He came over kneeling down trying to take my hand. "Do NOT touch me. Do you know what its like. Someone dying in your arms. Burying your fiancé AND all your friends do you even KNOW what its like. I wanted to die. Hell I still want to die. You ruined everything. I was having a baby girl. You RUINED IT," I screamed "he wouldn't fight. He died in my arms. He died in my arms. I had to bury him. You ruined everything," I screamed at the top of my lungs.

"Santiago what are you doing to my mate?" Caius said grabbing onto his shoulder.

"I... I was just apologizing. If I knew she was your mate I wouldn't have done it,"
He said.

"Youre the one who.... Go... leave before I rip your head off," Caius said through his teeth.

Carlisle knelt down taking my hands. "He ruined my life. I was happy. I was happy," I breathed heavily grabbing onto his wrists tightly. "He ruined my life," I repeated.

"Ill bring her up to your room Caius," Carlisle said and picked me up.

"I dont want to stay here. I dont want to live with the one who killed my family. He took away everything from me Carlisle EVERYTHING. For the first time in months I was happy with Peter happy with them. But he killed them. He left Peter alive just so he could give me a
Message Carlisle. You dont understand," I
Yelled. "No one ever understand,"

"Izzy breathe for me," he said setting me down on the bed. "Take this," he said handing my a pill.

I knocked it out of his hand. "I dont want it," I said to him.

"Izzy itll help," he said.

"I dont want to take anthing," I said.

"Carlisle do somehing," Caius said.

"I'm sorry Izzy," he said and got something out of his bag. I saw a syringe and a vial.

"I dont want anything Carlisle." I pushed him away.

He easily grabbed my arm and injected the soulution,which I assumed is a seditive.

"How am I supposed to recover if you wont let me feel this. Dont I have the right to process this?" I yelled at Carlisle.

"This isnt processing this is a panic responce. You found out something horrible, which triggers panic, with having borderline personality disorder and bipoar disorder, those attacks typically result in self harm. Ive seen this many times before," he said.

"Do you drug everyone whohas a panic attack? Huh?"

"Trust me Izzy," Carlisle said and helped me lay down.

"Theres no one I can trust anymore," I whispered rolling onto my side. I fought the seditive but it was no use.

Carlisle rubbed my shoulder. "You'll learn how to deal with this soon," he said.

"Go away," I whispered closing my eyes dizzy some feeling incredibly sick.

"Breathe," Caius said picking me up.

I cried into his lap crying myself to sleep.