The movie

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1 step forward, three steps back - Olivia Rodrigo
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"You've got to be kidding me Max, he came to visit me after I passed out in the fucking car, what did you expect him to do.!" I half yelled, extremely frustrated by his behaviour,
I know he's someone who easily gets jealous and at times I think it's adorable but this was a step too far. He can get jealous of somebody else touching me or tries to make a move on me but when I crash and get injured he sure as hell needs to stop this stupid jealousy act.
"Just get out." I sighed, wanting to be alone for a little while to think about everything that had happened in such a short amount of time."
"I AM NOT GOING." He full on shouted, making me scoot back on the mattress a little.
Max immediately calmed down, the features on his face softening while he got closer to me.
Swiping his thumb over my cheeks carefully, like I was a porcelain doll.
"I am so sorry." He muttered.
"I-I just can't deal with this right now." I spoke up making Max focus his eyes on the ground instead, looking like I just shot him.
"It's all just been a lot." He sighed, burying his face in his hands.
"I think we went too fast." I shyly admitted. Never did I ever think I would say that to him.
When I met him my world turned upside down. I would have done anything too be with him but I guess that after George I realised I have to put myself first sometimes. Even when it's hard.

"I think we need a break." I continued, feeling the tears forming in my eyes. I didn't want this but I knew that both him and I needed it. Everything just went so fast, from being the girl with the camera to racing myself, breaking up with Max and getting into a relationship with George. I just needed a bit of time to myself to realise how I'm doing and I think the same goes for Max.
I think we both just wanted to be together so desperately that we forgot to take it slow and actually get to know each other.
"Please Anna, you can't do this to me. Not after everything we've been through." He muttered, his voice cracking significantly while his fingers wrapped around my hand, the touch of his fingers pressing slightly into my skin making me want to cry even more. It's like it wasn't just my hand he was holding onto, it was our relationship.
"Oh baby." My voice cracked as well, making me press a gentle peck on his cheek.
"We will be fine, I promise." I tried to cheer him up.
"Let me take you back, thats the last thing I could do."he suggested, pursing his lips together, trying to hide his emotions.
"I'll go with Charles." I replied, despite just wanting to hug him and never let go again.
"I'll call him in." He said before leaving quickly.
The tears I had been holding in finally coming out.
"Anna." Charles called out in breathless whimper, striding towards me before wrapping his arms around me.

"I swear if he hurt you I will." He started threatening which I just ignored. Instead burying my head deeper in the crook of his neck, wanting to disappear for a while.
"Can you take me back to the circuit?." I asked in between sobs.
"Of course."
The ride back to the circuit was quiet, neither one of us sharing a word but I didn't care. Thoughts were filling that silence with ease.
I lost him, possibly forever. I want to believe it isn't true,I want to believe that after this break we'll come out stronger but I wasn't sure. Panic overtook me. What if he found someone else in the mean time?.
I tried my best to conceal my sobs but they were easily noticed by Charles who gently placed his hand on my knee, gently rubbing over it. Calming me down.

Charles and I didn't really know each other that well yet but I knew there was one thing that we could bond over.
Heartbreak.
"Can you tell me what happened?." He finally asked, making the silence appear.
"We're on a break." I faked a smile, hoping that in a way I would believe it was fine myself.
"It's okay to cry love." He assured me making me sob immediately.
I hated myself for coming off so weak but I gotta say it's been a lot the past few weeks.
""I know how much it hurts now but you've got to keep believing that it will be fine." He comforted me while continuing the circle pattern on my knee.
Once we had finally arrived at the track I was quick to be spotted by some of the staff from Alphatauri that were already walking over to me, presumably ready to ask me how I was feeling.
"Thank you for everything." I smiled at Charles, truly grateful for him being there for me.
"You helped me when I needed it so now I'm helping you, you deserve the best Anna." He looked into my eyes, trying to show how much he meant it.
Charles awkwardly coughed before walking over to the Ferrari moterhome, leaving me alone with the staff.

After acbunch of questions I was ready to go to bed, felling less than satisfied considering I had missed FP2.
I kept tossing and turning, thinking about what had happened. Was it the wrong choice?. Should I have been less hard on him?.I kept seeing the time going by without any sleep falling over me. I started feeling impatient making me do something I had never done before. I put on some clothes that I had laid out with a blanket in case I got cold  before getting out of the moterhome, making sure to be extra quiet considering everyone was sleeping.

I walked over the abandoned track, feeling extremely lost.
"Anna!." I heard someone shout scaring the shit out of me.
"Easy, it's just me." Charles chuckled once he came into view, making let out a breath of relief.
We took a seat next to the track, our legs hanging over the edge of one of the turns. I wondered why he was there but chose not to ask considering he was probably there for the same reason I was.
We both stayed quiet. Just enjoying the peace and quiet the night brought with it.
"It's always one step forward and three steps back." He spoke up making me look at him.
"Max."
"Yeah, I know." I faked a smile once m0re.
I noticed Charles was shivering, his teeth's chattering.
"Are you cold?." I asked, stating the obvious.
"I'm fine, don't worry." He puckered his lips while shaking his head,showing he didn't think it was a big deal.
"No come here." I ushered him closer to me making him scoot over which gave me the opportunity to wrap the blanket around his body.
"Thank you Anna." He thanked me making me shoot him a friendly smile before looking at the track again, which looked beautiful under the moonlight.
We're gonna be fine.