The secrets we keep [bxb]

Chapter - 17

Yuri squirmed uncomfortably. His body too hot to be under the blanket while his mind couldn't calm down, making him groan out in frustration as he opened his eyes. He felt so tired yet he couldn't seem to fall asleep. He let out a sigh while he eyed the moon through the window, the bright thing giving off a calming atmosphere.

A sudden heat wave that shot through his body made Yuri groan out in pain, his fingertips and toes tingling while his body trembled as the pain turned into pleasure. Yuri frowned in fright at the weird feeling his body was experiencing and accidentally bit his lip when a second wave made him squirm around.

"Rae." He breathed, desperate to have someone help him. "R-Rae." He said again, but louder, when the older didn't woke up.

The wolf hummed and slowly opened his eyes just in time to see the younger's face morph into a pained expression, waking him up instantly. "Yuri? What's wrong?"

Yuri opened his mouth to answer him, but the fingertips that brushed against his head when Rae tried to move his hair out of the way burned his skin, making him yelp out in shock. That had felt good. Yuri moved closer to feel it again and grabbed the older's hand to hold it against his cheek.

"Your heat." Rae mumbled concerned, feeling the sticky, sweaty skin of the younger against his palm. The skin almost unbearably hot. "Hold on, baby." He whispered as he carefully picked him up.

Yuri almost moaned as their half naked bodies connected, burying his face in the wolf's neck to lick him there affectionately. Rae tried to ignore his body reacting to his mate's heat and turned on the tab of the bathtub, filling the tub with cold water. Since he is a werewolf, he was better at ignoring his desires then his human mate was.

"You're gonna be fine, come on." He softly encouraged his little mate holding onto him like a monkey.

Yuri whined when he felt the cold water hit his skin and tried to climb out, but was pulled back between Rae's legs to sit in the tub with him. Yuri's skin felt extremely uncomfortable, his body moving on its own as he wiggled around to escape the hold the older had on him. "It hurts." He cried, a few tears escaping his blue eyes.

"It's going to be alright, just hold onto me." Rae mumbled while pulling Yuri's head closer, softly caressing his hair while the younger began licking his skin again. Rae tried to ignore his instincts as he let him do that for a while, feeling the younger calm down already after a few minutes.

Yuri felt his mind slowly clear up, his cheeks burning in embarrassment as he stopped licking his boyfriend. —He felt horrible. He sighed while massaging his temples, the headache that was present making him groan in pain.

"You feeling better?" Rae softly asked, kissing his hair.

"A bit." Yuri mumbled. "My body feels weird, or rather my skin I think."

"That's a thing that will happen in your heat, I'm sorry." Rae apologized. "I can feel my rut coming too, so... I think... we maybe have to cut this vacation short to get you home before that."

"What do you mean?" Yuri asked with a frown, pulling himself up so he could look down at his boyfriend.

"Just... my rut and your heat together probably will make me do things I would regret... And I don't want that." He mumbled, looking away. "I want you to feel comfortable with me and if my rut comes it would definitely make me do things you're not ready for."

"But I trust you—"

"I know, but as you maybe have noticed your heat makes you do things you normally wouldn't do, so..."

Yuri nodded, feeling like crying for some reason as he laid back down on top of Rae's chest. The older felt the warm tears fall on his skin and caressed the younger's hair apologetically. "Don't cry, baby. I'm sorry."

"I don't know w-why I am even crying." Yuri sniffled with a sad chuckle.

"Probably because I rejected you, in a way, so the mate bond isn't happy with that." Rae explained. "It's going to be alright, I promise."

Yuri hummed, but didn't feel any better. He felt like begging to get to change the older's mind, wanting to be his already. "Can't you claim me now, o-or something?"

"I don't think you are ready for that." Rae confessed softly. "I'll... have to bite you. You know? With teeth and all, I just... I don't wanna scare you away."

Yuri pursed his lips. "Scare me away?"

"I don't want to lose you." Rae said sternly. "Alright? I don't want to scare you away just when I finally got you. I don't want to force you into something, I don't want you to change your mind because of my stupid werewolf instincts, I just want to have you close like right now."

The younger licked his hurt lower lip as he tried not to cry at those words. It wasn't like it was a big thing, because it was normal to want your lover to feel comfortable, but it was still new to the young Yuri. He had never been into a relationship, let alone a romantic relationship.

"I am ready."

"No you're not."

"You don't know anything." Yuri argued, leaning back once again to lock eyes. "You don't know how I'm feeling and what I want."

"I kinda do." Rae growled back, the unusual animal sound kind of distracting the younger. "The mate bond isn't that strong yet, but I do still kind of feel and know what you want. And I know you want it, but your mind is not that ready as your body."

Yuri furrowed his brows as he glared down at the older, not knowing how he knew that. Probably because of that mate bond, he thought. "Well... I don't wanna feel this way, so help me stop it!" He almost yelled, frustrated.

"I don't want too!" Rae growled angrily. The sudden, low, animal growl shutting the younger up instantly. It was threatening, no room for words, as Rae huffed out a breath. "I just... fuck Yuri —I want to take it slow for you, not for me."

"I don't need it." Yuri argued back stubbornly.

"You do. You are on the edge of your heat, your body and brain are only focusing on one thing, and that is not your mental state. It's your instincts that tell you to mate with me and want me to claim you, but you are not ready, alright?"

Yuri pursed his lips as he stared down at his boyfriend. The dark, brown eyes serious and not wavering of what they had said. "Fine." He pushed out, pulling himself out of the older's hold to sit on his own. Not that he wanted to, but to make a point that he didn't agree to his words.

Rae rolled his eyes, knowing it wasn't hundred procent his Yuri, but still accepted his choice when he left him to sit on his own.

"I'm sorry." The wolf whispered after a few minutes. "I promise it's going to be better."

"Sure."

...

"I love you, Yuri." Rae mumbled. "You know I do."

I graduated my study in graphic design btw :) —Somehow I got through the year even though it was very depressing...

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