BTS Oneshots - Taking Requests

I don't care - Jin (fluff)

Imagine that this (y/n) is bigger.

I've always struggled with my weight.

Growing up, I always wanted an escape. Looking at myself in the mirror just made me frown every time. I'd see a new flaw, a new thing I didn't like, and my weight was one of them. I just wanted to lose it all, or to pretend it wasn't there. The more I stared, the more I hated it. I'd have good days where I was confident as hell, then bad days where I was convinced I should never leave my house again.

Regardless, I started getting better recently. Because of him. Jin. Kim Seokjin, someone who's always been there for me, no matter what. Looking in the mirror still hurts, but he was always right around the corner. Hearing his comments about his 'worldwide beauty' always put a smile on my face. Sometimes it even gave me confidence. But... sometimes is not always. I still have bad days. Today is one of them.

I don't know what it was about today. The way my thighs bulged out when I sat up in bed. My stomach rolls, all scrunched up. When I stood up, the feeling of all my fat slowly falling in its place. I walked over to the mirror. I saw myself, I felt so disgusted with myself. All my marks from where my fat has grown. I've always been bigger. I feel like I've tried everything. I used to be even bigger. I was 280 at one point in time. I'm 210 now. But I feel like nothing has changed.

I go to the bathroom, and watching my legs jiggle as I walk is so gross. I shower and get ready for today, not like I'm doing anything. Just might as well. As if he just knew he walked through my front door.

"Y/n?" He looked at me.

"Yeah, Jinnie?" I sigh, but I don't look at him. I just know that if I do, I'll cry. I don't know what is about him. He makes me break down, but in a good way.

"What's going on?" He sat by me on the couch, and put his hand on my thigh.

I move his hand, "Nothing, I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed."

"Well, I kind of... Had this feeling."

"What feeling?" I raise my brow at him.

"That you would want chocolate, but you're going on this new diet thing. Which by the way I think you're crazy for going on. Anyways I brought you a chocolate flavored protein shake."

"Awe, really? No! Uhm, I mean no thank you."

"What do you mean no thank you? You're not doing your whole 'not eating thing' again are you? You know I don't care what you look like. You always look perfect to me."

"I know that you think that, but you're wrong. How could you like something like me?"

"Something like you?"

"Yes, something like me." He did his signature pout, and tilted his head to the side, "Will you please, drink this? Just for me?"

"Not right now, just put it in the freezer." He got up and went to the kitchen. How is he not grossed out by me?

"You better drink that."

"I will. How are you friends with me Jin?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean there are so many other pretty, skinny people that you could be hanging out with. Not some disgusting overweight person."

"Cause there is no one else I would rather hang out with." I look at him confused. He looked up at the ceiling and let out a big sigh, "Y/n, you. You are the most perfect thing I've ever seen. I have high expectations because I'm worldwide handsome, and you meet those expectations perfectly. I love every part of you. I don't understand why you hate yourself. To be honest, Y/n? You are everything that I could ask for in a person. So that's why. That's why I want to hang out with you, instead of those other things." He smiles at me.

I just sit there with my mouth agape as he walks back over, plopping down on the couch again. Is he talking about me? Like - me me? Me? Is he sure? No, he must be confused. There's no way in hell he means me. I stare for a few more moments before softly smiling.

"Thank you."

He smiles back, "you're welcome."

It goes quiet for a few moments, no sounds between the two of us. What more is there to say? Of course I'm still feeling a little down, but Jin makes that better. The smile planted on my lips is genuine... all because of him. How lucky am I to have someone like him in my life?

He notices my mood, matching it within a heartbeat and shifting closer to me. "Are you okay?" he gently asks. Always so gentle. Maybe that should be his nickname instead of worldwide handsome. Gentle Seokjin. It fits him just as well.

"Thanks to you," I whisper. The two of us stare, then, laughter fills the room. It's a much needed laugh, his classic windshield wiper sound slipping through. It's safe to say that only makes us laugh harder.

"See? You have nothing to worry about. When someone can make me laugh like that with just a look, I think it doesn't matter. The truth is I don't care how much you weigh. You're beautiful no matter what. That's not what I look for in a person. I said it before, and I'll say it again. It's you, Y/n. What I look for in a person is you."

Knowing that he thinks this of me, is the most amazing thing in the world. But it just can't be true. No one could ever feel that way about me. A fat person. Why would someone feel that way about someone like me. I love him and he says that I'm his 'everything', maybe he thinks that now. What if he sees me naked and all of a sudden he doesn't like me anymore. Thinks I'm ugly. What if-

"Y/n?" I shake my head and look at him.

"Yeah?"

"You know when you get so into your head, sometimes you talk out loud? Well you just were, and I heard everything you just thought. Its not true. I love you just the way you are. I know its hard to believe, but it's true. I like the extra curves that you have. I love them actually. I love it when you get so mad that the tips of your ears and cheek get pink. I love it when you feel insecure around, because then I can compliment you, on all of your features. I love you. I love you. No one else. I know you get sick and tired of hearing it, but it's irresistible to say it. I love you Y/n." I sat there with my mouth agape. Everything he just said. He genuinely meant. I only know this because he didn't break any eye-contact. He didn't hesitate.

That's how i knew that I loved him. He started to lean forward. My heart was beating faster with every inch he got closer. His breath hit my face. He smelled of blueberry muffins, and a vanilla mocha. When his lips touched mine, my eyes fluttered shut. My heart was about to explode. Our lips melted into each other. The kiss was long. Beautifully long. When we pulled apart he looked me straight in the eyes.

"Y/n. You are beautiful, in every way to me. I love you."

"I love you too Jin. With everything I have. Thank you Jin."

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A/n: Sorry it's short. But it's sweet and cute.. Or at least I thought it was.