PAINFUL THORNS : La Cosa Nostra Series #1✓

Chapter 20

"Love is like a wind you can't see it but you can feel it."

Chapter 20

Americ's POV

"I love you, and our child."

I'm speechless, hindi ko na alam kung totoo pa ba lahat ng ito? Am I dreaming or hallucinating right now?

That's my most awaited words from him and he said those words naturally, I can feel the emotions in his voice. Tahimik na ibinaon ko sa kanyang balikat ang aking mukha while he continue whispering those words in my ears.

Is this the sign that we're really starting over again? Senyales na ba ito na oras na para maging masaya naman ako?

"I will always feel sorry for what I did to you, but I will not say sorry for finally telling how much I love you, I'm gambling my whole heart for you again. Just for you and for our child, sorry it took me this long to admit it---" Napahagulgol na ako dahil sa patuloy na pagsasalita niya.

It's too much, hindi ba siya titigil? Gusto niya bang magkaroon ako ulit ng mental break down? Sino ba kasi nagsabi sa kanya na biglain niya ako ng ganito?

Mas humigpit ang yakap nito sa akin. Not willing to let go for a second.

To be honest he is starting to bring all of those feelings back. Ilang buwan ng nananahimik ang puso ko sa pagtibok ng ganito pero ngayon ay walang hirap niya lang na ginising muli ang buong sistema ko. I'm just too denial to admit it.

When I truly care for someone, their mistakes never change my feelings because it's my mind that gets angry but my heart will always care.

Maybe everything is too much that I can't think of anything but to be alone for the meantime. I have to think about this, choose the right decision this time and be happy in the end.

"I--I want to be... alone for now, can you please give me some time to be alone?" Humihikbing utos ko habang kinakalas ang kanyang yakap. His body obviously doesn't want to let go of me. But he decided to grant my wish.

He let me go but then cupped my face. "Stop crying, I will give you space, but I will never leave americ. You can't make me leave. I will stay by your side 'til the day I die." Matigas na ani niya habang marahang pinupunasan ang luha sa aking pisngi.

I stopped looking into his eyes dahil alam ko na bibigay lang ako lalo.

"I love you, always remember that." He stated before turning his back to leave me alone in that cold room. This is what I asked pero bakit para akong madudurog sa sobrang lungkot ng sandaling maglakad na siya paalis?

Tulala akong napaupo sa kama ilang minuto pagkatapos nitong umalis. Being away from him for months is just a coverup of the true feelings that is still lingering all over my system. Pantakip lang ang lahat ng galit na nararamdaman ko para sa kanya dahil ngayon ay parang gusto ko nalang kalimutan ang lahat.

He said he love me and I'm still in doubt about that. Pero sapat na ang sensasyon at pagmamahal na naramdaman ko ng sandaling sabihin niya ang mga salitang iyon. I've been praying for this day to come, and I didn't expect that this day will unexpectedly happened without giving me any warning.

"I still love him... sino ba ang niloloko ko? I've always been in love with him." Mapait akong napangiti dahil sa pagiging marupok ko. Preparing myself for this is not easy, lahat ng paghahanda ko sa muli naming pagkikita ay 'tila bula na nawala sa utak ko.

The night we met again ay bigla nalang nawalan ng salita ang utak ko. I became speechless whenever he's around and I'm annoyed with that kind of situation.