Crime In Love Line

Chapter 26

There were these days that I felt so hopeless. My life fucked up. The only thing I could describe, my father is a monster. Hindi niya tinantanan si mommy. Hindi ko maintindihan kung ano pa ba ang gusto niyang makuha sa amin. He chose Sylvia in the first place, now why is he causing a rucus again?

Pagod na ako. Pagod na pagod na ako.

I rubbed my eyes just to see the tree house's ceiling. It felt like I had a deja vu, remembering those happy days with Jiro when I'll wake up beside him, the ambiance of the tree house would make my heart flutter, and the smell of his perfume is the first thing that could reach my nose.

Matagal akong napatulala para alalahanin kung paano ako nawalan ng malay. Ramdam ko ang panlalamig ng mga kamay ko, at maging ang pamumutla ng labi 'kong halos magdugo na dahil sa kaka-kagat ko dito tuwing nararamdaman ko ang pag-babadya ng mga luha ko.

I cried while laying down on Jiro's bed. I wanted to face these shits on my life pero paano ko gagawin 'yon kung mismong sarili ko ay hindi ko magawang tulungan. I just want to escape. But I could never sleep at night when my brother is fighting for his life and my mother would nearly surrender herself as a slave for my father's evil commands.

Ang bigat sa puso. Nasasaktan ako. My brain could barely function just by thinking how vulnerable I am without him. Without Jiro.

Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas na tahimik akong humahagulgol sa higaan. I suddenly felt someone pecked his lips on my head. Maya-maya ay naramdaman ko ang biglang pagyakap sa akin ni Jiro.

It was comfortable. It was enough to calm my thoughts. I could never raise my pride on this man.

"I'm sorry," He uttered softly, his hands were slightly squeezing my waist.

Naramdaman 'kong pumatak ang luha niya sa braso ko dahil roon nakasandal ang mukha niya. Bahagya 'kong iniangat ang sarili para humarap sa kaniya.

I stared at his eyes. His very beautiful eyes. Kitang-kita pa rin ang mga sugat niya sa mukha na hanggang ngayon ay pala-isipan pa rin para sa akin. But I settled my dark thoughts about him. I need him. Kailangan ko ang lalaking mahal ko so I didn't entertained how much I hate him for hiding things from me.

"Mahal kita..." My voice broke. I couldn't see him properly because of my blurry vision caused by my tears.

"Please forgive me, Lianne... h-hindi ko sinasadya..." He held my hands and putted it on his lips. "Sorry, sorry sorry-"

"I am sorry..." Nanginginig ang boses ko nang magsalita muli. "I'm sorry for making you feel...t-that I l-lose my trust on you."

I could not see his expressions since I could barely see him. Ngunit ramdam ko ang tensyon sa pagitan naming dalawa. There's still this bad thing stuck in my heart and mind but my love for him always overtake. Handa akong magpakabulag para lang kay Jiro. I couldn't stand days na malayo ang loob ko sa kaniya.

"Mahal mo pa rin ba ako-"

I didn't let him finish his question because I pushed his head at my face to give him a deep kiss. A kiss that I didn't knew could make me forget my crisis in life. Para akong nagpalutang lutang nang magdikit ang labi namin. It was more than my love for him. I couldn't express it.

"Is that enough to tell you so?" Banggit ko matapos kumalas sa kaniya.

Hindi siya nagsalita at matalim lang na tumitig sa mga mata ko. He held my chin and gave me one more kiss.

"I'll do better, baby..." He said softly. I smiled at him. "Anong gusto mong umagahan? May pancakes dito at...cereal..."

Bahagyang napuno ang puso ko nang magkaayos kami ni Jiro. I watched him cook pancakes and we ate together. Hindi ko naman na-open sa kaniya ang nangyayari sa pamilya namin kahit ramdam ko na gusto niya akong tanungin tungkol sa mga nangyayari. None of us spoke about these shits in our lives. We just let the time pass, until we finished eating.