Crime In Love Line

Chapter 18

"Naririnig mo ba 'yang sinasabi mo?"

Tumayo ako para layuan siya. He also stood up and leaned himself against the wall, arms were crossed on his chest.

"You're only saying that para takpan ang feelings mo kay Chelsey....you're...only using me!" I bit my lower lip and pulled my hair backwards. "Siya ang gusto mo, not me!"

His beautiful lips parted and it formed a grim line. Nakasandal pa rin siya sa pader at walang emosyon ang mababasa sa mukha niya. He was just serious and for the first time, nakakatakot ang mga titig niya.

"Hindi ko alam na 'yan pala ang naiisip mo..." He heavily sighed. Matagal bago muli siyang magsalita. "Pero wala akong gusto kay Chelsey...hindi ko alam kung saan mo nakuha 'yon."

Past scenarios entered my mind. On how Chelsey's name slowly stabs my heart, everytime it was mentioned by his friends, and by my classmates. Chelsey's beautiful and angelic face appeared on my cloud of thinking, seeing that she's prettier than me and no one could ever replace her on Jiro's ideality.

"You left me t-that night..." I bowed my head and played with my nails. "Because...you rushed into her."

"Yun ba?" He swallowed hard causing an aggressive move of his adams apple. Nakaupo ako ngayon sa kama at siya naman ay nakasalampak sa sahig sa harapan ko. "May kailangan siyang ibigay sa'kin kaya nagmadali akong pumunta sakaniya. Hindi naman ako napapadalas sa room nila dahil...dahil hindi naman 'yon HUMSS."

I remembered seeing him in front of our classroom and would even explain himself na bibili lang raw siya ng turon. Tumatambay siya 'ron para sa'kin? It didn't even came in my mind. I never had the thought of him, doing efforts just to see me, just to make me happy and to give me the hint that he likes me.

"Why...are you...explaining yourself..." I sobbed.

"Kung kailangan. Kung 'yon ang dapat mong marinig para maniwala sa'kin." He bowed his head. Kung ano-ano ang idinodrawing niya sa sahig gamit ang hintuturo niya.

"Bakit ang hirap iparamdam sa'yo na...gusto kita."

Hindi ko na makita ng maayos ang mukha niya dahil nakaharang na ang buhok niya. Yukong-yuko siya roon so I failed to glimpse on his face.

Lumapit siya sa'kin at sinubukang hulihin ang tingin ko. I moved sideways to avoid him. I was just straight looking on the floor because I can't stand to look on his fiercely eyes.

"What do you...want me to do then?" Mahina at malumanay 'kong tanong. "Mabait ka naman sa lahat. You're treating me the same way on how you do with...other girls."

That's how I see him. He was too friendly to the point that you can't see which one he likes, and which one he only shows friendliness. And this whole time, I've never seen myself as the girl he admires.

Unti-unting bumaba ang tingin niya sa sahig bago siya umiling.

"Hindi ko binibigyan ng chocolate ang mga kaibigan ko, April." He chuckled a bit. "Ikaw ang gusto ko..."

Kita ko kung paanong nagbabadya ang mga luha mula sa mata niya. I didn't felt any awkwardness on every silence that passes by, before we could utter another word.

"Hindi ko na alam..." Kinusot ko ang mata ko. "Can I...go home now?"

My mind was full of different emotions that I wasn't able to express in front of him. I just want to go home, lock myself into my room and overthink.

"Sasamahan na kita." Simpleng sabi niya.

"But..." He just confessed his feeling for me, and same as I did. Hindi ba dapat ay umiwas muna kami sa isa't isa? Nevermind. I'll just go. "S-sige..."