Dear Ciel

Chapter eighteen;

        Ciel has been out shopping for some time. He must have gotten distracted by some flower seeds or some sort. I giggle at my own thoughts. I get back to my work and fill out paper work. 

        Today has been a slow day, nothing eventful has happen. Or maybe, I'm just growing boring. Either way, I am bored. I play with my writing utensil between my fingers. I then tap it upon the desk, making a catchy beat. 

        I open my desk draw, to the letters I've received from Ciel in the prior years. I should read them, it should pass some time. I can only concentrate if Ciel is here.

        I unfold the first letter.

         ''Dear Sebastian,

Madam Red says I will gain a lot of weight if I keep on eating so much. What she doesn't know is, I have a fast metabolism. Well, that is what snake told me. I can eat all the sweets I desire. Bard always buys me some from the shop down the road. Come to think of it, Bard has become almost as a father to me. Strange. Well, I have thing to do! I love you. 

                            Sincerely,

                                                 Ciel.''

        How sweet his letters used to be. He always talked about his lively servants and his master. It was always humorous to hear how Finny would break something, or Meyrin would trip and break all the fine china.

        I unfold another letter.

         ''Dear Sebastian,

Have you ever head of Hamlet? Meyrin let me borrow her book of it, it is very interesting indeed. I think you should read it. I personally enjoyed it dearly. If you do read it, tell me what you think. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. I love you. I'll hear from you in the next letter.

                        Sincerely,

                                      Ciel''

        I remember that book. I did end up reading it. Did i enjoy it? No. I hated it actually, I just told Ciel I enjoyed it. Before I could read another letter, a loud knock boomed through my office. 

 ''Master, it is urgent. Please let me in.''

 ''Come in.''

            William rushes into my office, pale as a ghost and his glasses barely hanging off his nose.

 ''What is wrong?'' I ask.

 ''It's Ciel.''

        I'm running as fast as my legs will allow. Anxiety and disbelief is the only emotions I feel at the moment. I can feel the tears rushing down my face as I run through the town. I can hear William behind me, yelling for me to slow down. I won't slow down, I must see Ciel. I know he is okay, he has to be okay. Please, I don't want to loose him. 

        I can see the tipped pver carriage and a group of people scattered around. I see the yard is in the mix as well. I run faster, not believing what is happening. It all becomes clear when I reach the crowd of people.

        I push through them all, to get to the front. I look down at the scene. The carriage is flipped to it's side and underneath it is Ciel. My heart drops when I see the puddle of blood under him. 

        I run up and collapse to the ground. Screaming for someone to help him. I hold his hand to check his pulse, he's gone. I try to pull him from under the carriage but, it won't budge. I look down at the lifeless human beside me. He's gone. Never to return. Never.

        I scream, squeezing his hand. Why must you leave me? Why? I need you and you know that. Please, don't leave me behind. What am I going to do without you? 

        I stand up, wiping my face. I look down at Ciel and notice something shinning around his neck. I bend down and see it's the locket, the one that has his paren'ts pictures inside. I unlock it and slide it off his neck. I kiss him on the head, the last kiss I will ever give him. 

 ''I guess this is goodbye, Ciel. I thought my recklessness and working would make me the one to go first. I'll see you again, my love.''I whisper.

        I turn around to the officer.

 ''I'd like his body to be transferred to the nearest coffin shop.'' I plainly said, walking off without another word.

        I see William, out of breath.

 ''Master.''

 ''Not now. Please leave me alone, I'll be back later tonight.''

        I walk past him. I don't want to be around anyone. I have to be alone. 

        I walk through the town, like Ciel has done so many times before. I imagine him walking through, with his same old attitude. Glaring at people with his stares and eyeing the flowers he'd past. 

        I feel the stream of tears rush down my face. My body trembles, causing my legs to shake. I try to walk but, give up. I lay down in a land of grass, viewing the sky.

         What am I going to do without you? I always thought you'd be by my die, until the very end. I thought we would get married and live our lives together. I always imagines us growing old together. How am I going to work, without the sound of you flipping through a book? How am I going to eat, if I won'tbe able to see you expressions every time you take a bite? How am I suppose to look at the flowers and not think of you?

        I rise my arm and cover the view of the sun with my hand. I take my other hand and dig through my pocket and bring out the locket that belonged to him. I open it up to see different pictures inside. There's a picture of him and I on one side and on the other is the picture of all the servants, Grell, William, Agni, Lau. I can feel the tears come back now and more than ever. 

        Ciel, I love you more than words in a letter can describe.