Dalliance

Ten

One night I had a nightmare that woke me up drenched in sweat. We had just met and become friends. I wet the bed in fear. You were sleeping in the upper bunk and I started to cry because I was so ashamed.

I heard you shift in the bunk above me and climb down to see what the matter was. After seeing my six year old self so scared and embarrassed, you carefully helped me out of bed and grabbed new pajamas for me from my dresser. You changed the sheets for me and then laid in the bed with me because I was too afraid to close my eyes.

I remember you stroking the hair from my eyes and singing to me a lullaby. You sang this lullaby every time I was scared including when our parents died. I let those words course through my mind now as fear shook my body at full force.

Deep inside your mind,
Where the demons run to hide,
They speak nothing but lies,
Whispering them into your ears.

But listen child of mine,
For there will come a time,
When you will have to fight,
And conquer your fear.

When that day shall come
You wont have to fight alone,
For I will be standing with you.

And you will stare them down
Because nothing can harm you now
But it's a fight you have to choose.
And it's a fight you can never lose.

I could feel my demons coming out now from all the dark places I had carefully kept them. I could feel their talons scratching to escape and take hold of my soul. I felt as though I was being choked out and I couldn't breathe.

It was like I was in a black room with only you and Sir. Everyone else faded into the scene. I kept my focus on you as I fought the urge to cry. My eyes welled betraying me and I could feel the wetness of fresh tears washing my cheeks. I bit my lower lip and balled my hands into fists digging my nails into my own flesh. I took deeps breaths to calm myself but to no avail.

You stood so slowly and with such precision. Carefully taking your time to use your hands as support. You straitened your shirt and dusted the dirt off your knees. You wiped your eyes and cleaned your face the best you could combing your fingers through your hair.

You smiled at me again with compassion and kindness. You held out your hand to me offering it up freely. Your eyes were soft and full of love to give to me. It wasn't the love the Devotion had poisoned. This was our innocent love. A deep love only meant to be given away to someone you truly care for.

"It's okay." You whispered. "I trust you." You smiled tenderly once more.

I froze. I couldn't move at all. My feet began to cramp and my palms were mixed with sweat and blood. Chills raced up my spine and my jaw ached from how hard I had clenched my teeth together. I opened my mouth but nothing came out. I watched you as you nodded your head.

"Kill me."

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