𝗔𝗿𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗲

Fool for you

i woke up to find that the dark haired prince that was laying next to me was gone. not much later my eyes find him in my balcony, sitting on the bench that has been there since i can remember. just then i thought of last night but the smile that appeared wasn't the one i was expecting

he has a fine sense of beauty and excellent taste. there is grace in his movements, reflecting his keen sense of harmony and refinement. but was it enough? was it what I'm searching for? yeah it was perfect but something about it felt wrong, uncomplete

"do you sleep well?" the prince asked as i went out and took a sit next to him. giving me a honest smile. his eyes are shinning with the rays of the early rising sun

"yeah" i answered shortly returning the smile. "what where you doing?" i asked curiously trying to see what he was writing on his journal, he politely let me see, handing it to me. i start reading

"it's a poem" i look up to those dark eyes and smile before looking back to the words in my hands. "i got inspired" his eyes not leaving my face to follow my eyes movement and see my facial reaction. "what do you think?"

"this is so beautiful Zayn" a smile appearing on my face after reading the beautiful words the boy wrote not so long ago. "can you read it for me?" i inquire. he nodded and i gave him back the journal and start listening with heed to every word that left his mouth

"This love is tainted
I need you and I hate it
You're caught between a dream and a movie scene
In a way, you know what I mean
When the darts just miss, I just can't resist it
'Cause I'm a fool for you
And the things you do
When you're looking like this
I just can't resist it
I know sometimes I hide it
But I can't this time 'cause it's gonna defeat me
But if you won't believe me
Believe me
'Cause I'm a fool for you and the things you do
Given a chance I'd do it again,
'Cause I can't help myself
I just love being a fool for you"

it's different when he reads it, it takes on another meaning, it's prettier

"can i ask you something?" he nodded, "who is your muse" maybe it was something i shouldn't have asked. more after last night. but i can't help my self for wondering who this lucky girl is, i don't think it's me, or yes?

he stare at me for a moment, thinking on the words that would leave his mouth. thinking if it's correct to answer after our little long moment. but before he could answer that British accent interrupt us. my eyes traveling from the dark hair boy in front of me to the brunet boy standing in the middle of the balcony and my bedroom

"sorry to interrupt your majesties but breakfast is ready" we smile at him and he leave, so that now is only the two of us again

and it was in that moment that i knew what i really feel, what my heart really wants. but my head stop me as the memories return, and the fact that he created illusions to then walk away broke me again

we took breakfast and then went for a walk. i have to say that i really have an amazing time next next to him, but I'm not sure anymore if this is what i thought. if i really found love or it was just my head playing with my heart so that I'm able to forget the pain

everywhere i go i see the two boys, and i can't help but wonder who I'm in love with and who i feel attracted to. who is the one i want to be with for the rest of my life and with whom i just spent one night

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"Zayn" i stop our night walk, i can't continue like this. he stop and return some steps to face me and listen to what this confused heart has to say. "i..." i don't know how to say it. what if he really feels something for me? i don't want to break him as they broke me. but is better this than pretend i love him. "i spend a really great time with you-" he cut me before i could even start

"Y/n you are an amazing girl, a real princess, with the biggest heart i know" our eyes not leaving the others, "and i had a really good time with you too and last night was amazing but..." he stopped. there is a 'but', i hope he makes it easier for me. "but i... my heart is with someone else" you don't know how much i want to tell him the exact same words. "i think that... she broke me not so long ago and i think i start seeing you like that to forget about her but it's not fair for you" he looks really bad for what he did, and i cant contain my self for smiling

"it's okay" he looks confused, i giggle. "I've been meaning to tell you the exact same thing the whole day" we both laugh

"so we are good?" i nodded and we shared a hug, then headed back to my room and once there he leaded back to the room they assigned him

"he's not staying today?" the knight in shining armor finally talk to me for another reason that is not 'work'

is he serious? he stop talking to me, even seeing me, for how long? one month? and suddenly from the nothing he decide to talk? i shook my head and headed to change my dress for my nightgown

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and it's finally time for Javadd to return to his palace in Bradford. so as the past ones it was a hard goodbye, but it's not a goodbye it's a see you later

i wish his love live gets better, all i want is to forget about Tom, to allow the pain to get out of my body. to find real love, someone who appreciates me and truly love me. i want all the damage he made out of myself

i don't know why i feel like this. maybe i was in love with him for longer than i thought. what witless i was

all i want is love that last, is all i want too much to ask. is something wrong with me?

all i have is myself at the end of the day, shouldn't that be enough for me? all i want is with that to be okay

i miss the day when i was young and thought the perfect guy would come and find me, now i know happy ever after don't come that easily