𝗔𝗿𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗲

Earn me

you know what, I'm tired

i am tired of fighting

i am tired of being the only one who loves

i am tired of waiting

i am tired of HIM

for weeks I've been trying to show him, to get an answer, but nothing. i told him how i felt and what did he do? ignore me

i opened my heart, i gave him MY heart and the only thing he does is play with it, break it when ever the fuck he wants. i am done with it. i am done with him

i am not a toy he can play with when he is bored or lonely or horny. i am not the girl the boy gets at the end of the book. i am not a fantasy. if he wants me he has to earn me. until then we are done!

"you can't keep hiding this from him!" Roberts voice shout from inside my fathers office, "you are not longer the king" his tone lowered after realizing its previous tone, "Leopold is, he needs to manage this"

father keeps looking from the window, thinking. "we have around nine hundred deaths, my lord"

i gasped and my hands traveled to cover my mouth, letting the book i was holding in my hands fall on the ground, making a loud noise

"what was that?" father voiced exclaimed and Robert direct his self immediately outside

"there's no one" he lied, he saw me and Thomas. "it was probably one of the maids" he returned in side

"we need to be careful with this" father voice sounded worried, "no one can know about this" Robert agreed

"are you alright, my lord?" Robert voice spoke after father coughed rudely

"yes" his voice hoarse, "i need some tea" Robert exited the room and before heading to the kitchen he looked at me, trying to say something but at the same time wanting to say nothing

if there's something you need to know about me and Robert is that he is more of father to us than our REAL father. after mom passed away, father distanced even more from all of us, he became even colder. Robert raised us, but he became closer with me. as a child, he used to play with me, he saw me grow up, creating a strong bond between us

he has been with the family since father became the king, he is like of the family

i knew something was going on, i listened previous conversations between them and i saw it by myself. without saying they kidnapped me thanks to that. i told Leopold but he doesn't want to hear me, he keeps treating me as a little girl, i am an adult, i know about the reign as much as him, i am as capable as him. but no, i am not able of nothing

nether for him, nether for any one else

every time i try to help with something they make me get quite. i know it's not only because i am not the heiress, i am a girl. and woman needs to keep they pretty mouth shut. but we know more, and we are more capable than men, but there is not so much i can i do

if i couldn't even gain someone's attention, how am i gonna gains thousands, and then change it

— ♡ —

"that was beautiful" the knight voice said after my fingers finished playing a melody over the grand piano keys

"i know" i answered coldly, not turning to face him

"you should sing too" he kept talking, "you have a beautiful voice" no answer from me. "are you alright?" he asked after a while of my self ignoring him

"why wouldn't I?" my fingers keep running from key to key

"i don't know, you seem... angry" he got closer, i tried to make a harder noise but there is no way that can happen, the only thing that changed after my fingers pressing harder on the white rectangles is making the melody rude, "are you mad at me?" his voiced changing to a blue tone

"i don't know" my fingers with no stop, "did you made something to make me mad?" irony running in my system, he denied it, "then i am not" and they stopped, i stood from the bench i was sitting on and stood for a while in front of him, then smiled treacherously and passed by him, leaving him behind

i wish i could hate him

Tom Holland

i don't know what happens with her. she is never like that, she is the sweetest person i know. did i make something wrong?

of course i did, she told me how she feels and tried to get a response from me, and i decided to ignore that. but what would i do? someone like me is not for her

i cant push away my feelings if she keeps fighting for what is not here, it can't be here. but i think now it would be simple, now that she stopped it, it would be simple, right?

"where do you have your head, Holland?" my boss talked me out of my thoughts, i quickly stood up

"sorry, sir" i apologized. he took them and left the room

as soon as he got out, i started to take away the heavy armor i carry every day. "so, who is the girl?" Jake asked while he did the same as me. how does he knows it is about a girl? "come on, it's obvious" he answered like reading my mind

i shook my head, "doesn't matter"

"in all the time I've know you, i have never see you in love, so i think it matters" Jake is like my older brother. we met at a young age, his family, the Gyllenhaal's, make the best iron on the village, we always wanted to become knights in the royal court, of course we thought it would be different, that we would fight on wars

don't misunderstood me, i love my job, and thanks to it i met the most wonderful-, we just thought it would be different

he started training and working before me, of course, he is older, but we never lost contact

his father used to make us armors and my dad, as he is a carpenter, made us the swords. we have good memories protecting the crown

"have you ever feel something for someone but you can't translate it to words?" i stopped taking away the armor and look at him, he, as well, stopped too. sighed and answered my question

"you can't explain what you feel because you have a big contradiction" he started but his words made me even more confused, "an affirmation and a denial that oppose and destroy each other" his head turned to find mine, "when you get an overcoming feeling, all that will disappear"

"and what do i do meanwhile?" i do not want to hurt Y/n, that's the last thing i want. but i also can't show her how I feel. how would I if nether do I know what happens to me when i'm with her, that is every day

if nor I understand them, how would she

without saying i do not deserve her