𝗔𝗿𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗲

Rewrite the stars

"... the truth?... i love you" at the moment those words left his mouth my heart stopped. "is that what you wanted to hear?" he is tense, his eyebrows are looking down, his whole body looks heavy. his hand is still holding my arm and his hazel eyes looking deep into mines. my mouth decided to run out of words and my eyes decided not to look away from the browned peepers

he realized what he just declare, his pupils and whole eyes went big. then he released my arm, breaking the eye contact. he gave some steps back and start running his fingers all over his brown curls and stutter, "I-I-" he has no idea what else to say, how to run out this time

I'm still processing what he said. i never thought he felt that way. somedays i knew, i was sure, that he felt something for me but never that strong. other days i thought he was just playing a game i didn't knew. now i know what he really feels. he loves me

words are still not able to form on his mouth

i smiled. he loves me

"Tom" i called for him but he keeps playing nervously with his hair and finding words to say to revert the ones that already left. "Tom" i called for him again, this time getting closer to him. "Tom!" i took his arm for him to look at me. his chocolate eyes finally met mines but fear and contrition is still in charge of him. "I love you too" where the words that left my mouth

even tough i already told him that as an insinuation before, this time he has nothing to reject it. it was clear and directed only and specially for him

his mind is thinking clearly what he is going to do or say. as always he does not want to screw everything but this time there is no way out. his heart finally spoke. no excuse is functioning this time

my pupils looked down at his lips for him to know what i want to do. but he is scared. "Y/n, I..." he is still figuring out what to say. he doesn't want to hurt me but he can't realize that all i want is him, that i want to be able to call him mine. i want to be able to kiss his cherry lips and to spend the rest of my life by his side

"what, Tom?" i asked tired of his excuses. "you just said you love me" i stated, "what are you going to say now?" he knows he can't get out this time. he stayed silent and looked down. "you know i want you" i started, "it's not a secret i try to hide" he looked up from the floor to my eyes. "i know you want me so don't keep saying our hands are tied" he looked away. "you claim it's not in the cards and fate is pulling you miles away and out of reach from me, but you are here in my heart, so who can stop me if I decide that you are my destiny?" his eyes got back on me

"I'm nothing, y/n" i shock my head in disbelief, "you deserve-" i cut him before he could finish his predictive sentence

"i deserve someone who loves me, i deserve love" is it so hard for him to accept it? i know we can't be together but i love him and he loves me. that should be enough, that should be everything that matters, not a stupid tittle. "what if we rewrite the stars?" his hazel eyes stare at me with hope. "say you were made to be mine" i took his hand and his eyes traveled to see our hands together, then, they return up to his reflection in my eyes. "nothing could keep us apart, you'd be the one i was meant to find" i smiled, "it's up to you, and its up to me" not my father, not a third one. "no one can say what we get to be. so why don't we rewrite the stars. maybe the world could be ours tonight" he divided us by taking his hand away from mine

"you think it's easy?" he pressed his lips together and looked briefly to the floor, then back at me. "you think i don't want to run to you?" he looked away, "but there are mountains and there are doors that we can't walk through" i already know that but together we can. "i know you are wondering why because we are able to be just you and me within these walls but when we go outside, you are gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all" he looks angry and sad at the same time. "no one can rewrite the stars" his voice seem to be knotted, its difficult for the words to get out. "how can you say you'll be mine?" tears start forming on his eyes. "everything keeps us apart" he stopped briefly, "and I'm not the one you were meant to find" a tear finally fell down his cheek. "it's not up to you and it's not up to me when everyone tells us what we can be" he is trying to hold it so no more tears go out

"all i want is to fly with you" i took a step closer to his body, "all i want is to fall with you" i looked for his eyes but they don't want to meet mines. "so just give me all of you" with his gaze down he whispered it feels impossible, "it's not impossible" his eyes looked up to meet mines, "and if it's impossible, say that it's possible" no word left his mouth now. "nothing can keep us apart because you are the one i was meant to find" i want him to see us as i do, "lets change the world to be ours"

he took a step back and looked right into my eyes, "you know i want you, it's not a secret i try to hide" he repeated what i told him before, "but i can't have you" a gnarl started forming on my throat, "we are bound to break and my hands are tied" and it was all that was missing for a tear to go all it's way down my cheek

before one of us could say something else Robert called for me. Tom turned so that he can't see the sadness on his face with dry tears on his cheeks. "can we talk?" Robert asked me. i took a breath and cleaned the tears, i turned to face him with a fake smile and followed him

"everything alright?" he asked before anything else. i nodded and faked a bigger smile. of course he didn't believed it but he didn't made any other question about that. "i want to know what you listened the other day" he went straight to the point, leaving me on an alley

"nothing" i answered rapidly. i can't tell him that i know everything about what is happening, that would bring me consequences i don't want to face

"Y/n, you where outside your fathers office the other day, i know you listened to something" i looked away, "you know listening to conversations that do not involve could bring you an impact you don't want"

"i listened nothing, i swear" i lied once more. he sigh, bought it and left

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it's been a week since he played with my heart once again. he ignores me, not daring to look at me. all i can do is repeat our kiss in my head. how he claimed for me and the way i felt. i repeat his confession, specially those three little words that made my heart stopped. and then, the tears in my face after he regretted everything

the thought of being attached to someone else the rest of my life just because he is scared hunts me every day. so as the pain of the broken heart he created. multiple times

i should have kept my heart locked down since the first time he played with it. but I'm a fool for him that i can't keep the promises i do with my self. I'm a fool for him that i can't believe what I'm going to do

"i can't" i stop my night walk and turned to face the silhouette of the brunet. "i love you, Tom, and you love me too, so stop saying we cant be together because if you love someone there is no gate to stop you from being with that person" i stated. "there has to be a reason why we stumbled into one another" i believe in faith, and if the universe put us in each other path it was for a reason, if the universe made us fall in love was for a reason. "this was no accident" i looked right into his eyes with hope and so sure of what i said and of what we feel for each other

he looked at me the way i needed to be looked at. like the whole world crumbled and he wouldn't blink. "fucked it, y/n" he got closer to me placing his hand on my cheek and guiding his lips directly to mines, with no hesitation, with no stop, all in one movement. he kissed me. without warning, without permission. without even deciding to do it. but simply because he couldn't have done anything else. he kissed me like he needed that breath i was holding. it belonged to him and he wanted it back

and i kissed him back. and in that moment the world cracked open

the cold of his metal armor colliding with the warmth of my skin. the only witnesses were the stars. the stars shining above us. and the moon. the full moon that was staring down at us. just the two of us at the mercy of the night