𝗔𝗿𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗲

Chiaroscuro

My speech move along like a river. Everyone respects their queen now. It is as it has to be.

"You've done a great job out there" Jayce announced his self with that sentence.

"I know" I look briefly up at him.

"You have work a lot" he took the paper my pen was touching, "what if you take a break and come with me, we can go to your beautiful garden out there" he pointed out the window behind me.

"No, thanks" I stood and snatched the blade on his left hand. Then, after leaving it in my desk, I walked past him to leave the study room.

"Come on," he took my hand to stop me, "you need to have some fun" he raised his eyebrows.

"No" I smiled feigned and free my hand.

"Don't be so boring, y/n" his words sound in the back.

Since he arrived he's been trying to have something with me. Everyday he tries something new. What he doesn't knows is that I'm not in hunting.

The knight in shining armor walked past me. His chocolate eyes found mines but left them immediately. Otherwise, my eyes followed him until they couldn't see him anymore.

Why does he still affect me like this?

"So, that servant is why you keep rejecting me" Jayce called for my attention. He followed me. Like every other time.

A servant.

"What?" he chuckle

"I saw the way you look at him. Today and at the party" I'm not in the mood to talk about this. "Don't leave" he made me stop, "it's just too obvious you are in love with him. I wish someone could look at me the way you look at him"

"With the eyes?" he laughed, "what's so funny?"

"Haven't you realize you love him?" he got more serious

Love? I don't know what that is.

"It's the whole opposite. I hate him" I really mean what I said. Why would I love him after everything he did? Jayce nodded sarcastically and left.

"What is it with you two?" a familiar voice approach me. I didn't knew he was still here. "You say you hate him but the way you look at him... it's so clear. Even when you hate him you still love him"

That's not true. I don't love him. I can't love him. He hurt me. Why would I still love him?

"I don't" I said coldly. "What are you doing here, Tewksbury" I quire

"Never got the change to talk with you the other day." I stare at him in silence. "I heard your speech the other day, and I've seen what you are doing with the reign, it's amazing."

"I arrive to be a queen not a clown," his eyes widened. And a silence fill the air as he scanned me.

"They where right.... you are not the same" I am tired of people saying this constantly. They don't know what I pass for, and they wouldn't survive to it. "Your contagious smile is gone. Your warm heart is cold. I always picture you as a joyful queen but you are not"

"You need to be cold to be queen" that's something I learnt by the bad ways.

"I thought you would be the best queen because you put in others shoes, you treat everyone as an equal. That you will prove everyone wrong by your lovely way to see the world. Not by killing to be heard, nor by ruling heartless"

"I am more than everyone," he shook his head in disbelief, "and you can't be respect by seeing things in pink when the world is black. Love is a weakness and I have no weakness. And I have done more for this kingdom that any other man has made."

"Love is a strength and not the whole world is black and if it is, change it. You are not being respect, you are being dreaded." I rolled my eyes, " I miss the girl you were," his eyes traveled up and down all over me.

"Many will, she was easier to kill"

He stayed shock and I walked past him.

Every day that passes I can fell that even though the sun rises, inside of me, everything is gray.

Enough of the gazes that lie goodness because in my tender eyes there is only darkness. It's like a spell you can't burn.

I will never stop giving all my poison. And I have no limits, not even the sky. I am supernatural, earthly but I will still laugh at the end.

There is no longer chiaroscuro, only darkness.

What's wrong with being bad when the world is bad?

A queen will always turn pain into power.

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"Can't you understand a no!" I shouted out of temper after Jayce thousand try to make a move on me. I started walking to leave him behind and try to calm my self down. "Now please lea-"

"What I can't understand is why," he cut me pinning my body to the wall next to us, "look at me," I rolled my eyes, "I am the most handsome man that has stepped in your life and yet you keep choosing that servant," I open my mouth to amend the lies he just said but his rough voice didn't let me, "even though you say you hate him, you love him, and I can't understand what he has that I don't. Why do you keep rejecting me? We used to be great friends. And before I left to Spain we were moving forward. I thought when I returned we could continue where we left and reign together."

What?

"I wait for no one and I need no king" my eyes finally met his, drowned in fury.

We made eye contact for a while. His strong hand keeping me against the cold wall.

"You know what's funny," he broke the silence in the hallway, "I liked you when you had the kindest heart" his finger pointed to my chest, "but now," he paused and lowered his eyes down to my lips, "now you are irresistible." And as fast as the thunder he pressed his lips with passion against mines. He claimed for mouth in a way just one person has. And that night was a mistake.

My hands used all their strength and pushed him away. "What the fuck are you doing?!" I exclaimed.

"I thought it was clear," he stare at me thinking that just with that I will surrender to him. What a fool. He tried to kissed me again.

"Don't touch me ever again" I pushed him once more to what he just chuckle.

"Come on, Y/n. You should let things happen instead of trying to control everything."

"I dictate the rules to play." Before I could leave he catch my wrist abruptly. "Let m-" he cut me

"You think you can run this town, eh?" his eyes, that a moment before where seductive, turn into beasts, "a woman will never be capable to do such a thing. Not even your mother could." What did he said? "You better follow your role, little queen. You are here to look pretty and please me, don't deceive yourself," he let go my wrist after his eyes captured something in my back. "You are a great kisser," he wink at me and turned to leave.

What a-

"Is everything all right?" I turned to see the brown eyes staring at the dark haired prince that just left. When they feel my stare they lowered to look at my eyes. After that I left him behind. "Y/n" he called for me. His voice just eco in my past.

I can go up and I can go down. I have plenty of time to win. I can be right and I can be wrong. I run this show.

I could make the sun eclipse the moon. There is no condition that I do not meet. What everyone wants I already have it a thousand times. Risky and without limits. The desire moves me.

I can say or I can shut up. If I make up my mind I can get there. This is my life. I don't intend to change. I was born ready to succeed.