𝗔𝗿𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗲

Wedding day

the wedding day

my older brother is getting married today. i don't quite like weddings. specially arrangement ones

what do they celebrate? nothing

they are not even in love, they doesn't even talk with the other. he puts hopes on her to then snatch them away as fast as light travels. he plays with her heart. he confuse her to the point where she asks her self if what she feels for him is real. he makes her overthink, always. one day he can love her, he can show her all the love of the world, he makes her feel loved, makes her feel that someone cares for her, that someone loves her and the next day she's a stranger

love is not real, keep this in mind. the goosebumps are not real, you are maybe hungry. the heart razes are fake, you are maybe stress. the warmth all over your body is thanks to the weather. everything you 'feel' when he is around is just an illusion, is simply your mind playing with your heart

listen to your head, not to your heart

sometimes soulmates don't exists, sometimes people are destined to be alone, some people don't have a soulmate

what am i saying

no one has a fucking soulmate

love is simply bullshit

so wake up!

love is only fiction, get your head back on earth, stop dreaming and start focusing on what is real

if you cant touch it, its not there. can you touch love? no right, so why do you still believe

get all that foolishness out of your silly head and look to what is in front of you, focus on your self, there is no time, no space, to think on someone who is not you

"you look stunning, y/n" the only one that loves me compliment me

"you don't look bad" i joke and he rolled his eyes playfully

"Leo, Y/n, ready?" his wife asked, we nodded and direct our self's out of the palace and up the carriage

it took us a while to arrive to the church where the ceremony is taking place. a beautiful place, decorated with white and pink flowers

some guests where already on their places, Ailard was already here, on his suit waiting for her fiancé to arrive. he looks as on every other day. arrange marriage, isn't it the most beautiful one?

the music started, everyone get up and turn to the passage to see the duchess on her beautiful, big, white dress. she's pretty, so pretty. duchess Isabella Khair Hadid, one of the more beautiful and kind girls in the world. and now she's marring one of the most arrogant, selfish boys in the world. i don't say the most, that's the youngest one, Joshua, he could be all day seeing his reflection on his silver mirror

aren't they such soulmates

even tough i try, and believe me i really do, my eyes cant listen to my head, for more that i want, that i try they keep finding their way to the shining armor, and of course to the owner of it. he turns to see me as well, some times

and of course that exchange of gases couldn't be missing now, when they swear to be together until dead pull them apart, such bullshit

i don't know what game he is playing, but i can assure you as the sky is blue that I'm not gonna fall, not again, I'm not gonna let him play this

"be more discreet" a familiar voice spoke from my back

i turn to find the viscount clapping his hands, following everyone else movement. so i had to do it

but before i could say something everyone start getting out of the church, making a soup of people, making it impossible for me to find one of my only friends

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"viscount Tewkesbury, marquess of Basilwether" i found him staring at the couples dancing on the dance floor, making a circle around the just married couple

"princess Odette Tyrell y/n of England" he place his drink on the table beside him

we made a serious face, staring at the other. seriousness. just formality. "its beautiful seeing you again" happiness sprouting from us and our bodies close giving a warm and lovely hug to the other

we pull away, and start sharing a small talk, catching up

"so Tom, not just saved you from your kidnapers, but also killed someone because of you" he smirked while taking a sip of his drink

"yes, but that's his job" i rolled my eyes

i told him that little story, omitting the part where we kind of shared a moment, a private one and a cute one. but no need to tell him that, he is in love with love and would do a huge scene of it

and it meant nothing, well not for him, and if it was nothing for him, why would it be for me, right?

all those feelings weren't real, and i need to block them of my mind

"but you are still no together?" Tewkesbury continued with the interview about my ex love story with the knight

"what? no, those are just fruits of your imagination" and my heart betrayed me again. every time i think about him my eyes find their way to him. but i shook my head, try to avoid every feeling and thought and turn my gaze back to the marques in front of me

"you cant lie to me, y/n" he turned for a brief moment to see the knight, "i saw the peeks on the ceremony" how do i explain him

he would never understand how i feel, how it feels that the one you thought was the love of your life treats you like that

lets just avoid my relationship with Thomas

"so did you found Enola?" i look away

"you are not getting out of this one" please stop asking about him. please stop making my heart wrinkle like a raisin. "but no, not yet" thank god, "but ill keep searching for her, ill find her, 'cause love always win"

if only that was certain

"because when you love someone, you would do anything for him, and you will never stop fighting for their love, fighting for what you know is real. Because love is like that, its tricky, risky, unsure, but is the most beautiful thing you will ever find. it is like gold, so hard to find but once you found it, so valuable" i know he is not talking about him and Enola anymore

"and how do you know when you love someone?" my eyes as the whole day finding their way to the chocolate eyes

"that person is going to be on your mind all day, no matter you do he is there and there is nothing you can do to stop it, your heart is a roller coaster, you see everything in a different way. no matter what you do, that one person is gonna be there every time, every day, every hour, every minute, and every second

once you find it, you will know, your heart will know when the right person arrives, and when that happens, Y/n, take it, love it, yes it hurts, cause that's how lives works, but it all happens for a reason.

don't be scared to open your self. so as it is hard for you, its hard for the other person, it doesn't work the same for everyone, everyone has their own fears, but you have to show him that you feel the same and that there is nothing that stops your love, no one can take that away

no matter who you are, who he is, love always win, but if you fight back, if you want to fight it back you're gonna end hurt, more if you would have just let it continue it path

fight for it, don't make the same mistake i did, don't make your future self regret this, go for it, your heart knows the way"