The Smexiness Diaries

Entry 44

Dear Journal,

Ugh...

So...Meiko forced me and Mikuo to do some sort of couple's therapy for us to learn how to communicate better.

I tried to escape, couldn't, and ended up screwing things up...

Apparently, Mikuo's unhappy because I've been putting in too much effort to hide my feelings/problems from him and that's...making him worry, I guess...?

Well, that just set off floodgates, because next thing I know we're in this whole conversation about him not leaving me over small things, but then also my fear of him leaving me for Rinto because he's better than me and I overheard a conversation where Mikuo was talking about their relationship (apparently he was joking...I wasn't aware of that...and I can't understand why he'd joke about something like that...).

I remember that day...I was just going by that room--I wasn't even intending to eavesdrop, but I I heard a small tidbit of the conversation and stopped just outside the room.

I hid in my room for the rest of the day and made several pizza guys scale the wall to deliver through my window when I got hungry...

Well, all that came out, and now Mikuo feels bad...

Why did I have to say all that?

Ugh...

But...Meiko is still pushing us to keep going, and...and I still have more...problems...

But I can't talk about them...at least...well, I guess it's the same reason we have to do this dumb therapy session in the first place...

Also, Lenka and Xin Hua are there...Lenka was apparently supposed to help, but Xin is just sitting in a corner heckling me and filming us. Apparently we're her new Soap Opera or sonething...

And Piko joined...I initially called him to come bail me out, but he agreed that this whole mess would help me and Kuo...he's been trying to comfort me, too...bless his soul...

Ugh...

...

...If that first therapy session didn't make Kuo dump me, then...

*Sigh* let's hope the rest don't, either...

--Gumiya, the ripped up punching bag