Dear Journal,
I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't understand why I keep fighting for this so much. Why I'm putting so much effort into something that's not even making me happy.
I care about Mikuo. I really do. I always will. But...
Why doesn't he care about me anymore?
Why do I have to wait ten years for him to make any sort of gesture of goodwill? He said he quit his job, so why does he still ignore me?
What am I doing wrong?
I don't want to end things, but...
I'm not sure I want to continue them, either.
It hurts.
--Gumiya
