Dear Journal,
What do I do?
I'm tired, and scared, and worried, and angry, and...and all sorts of things, all at once, and I don't know how to deal with any of it.
I can't tell Mikuo...
I don't want him to leave me...
As if he isn't planning to already
I'm such an awful boyfriend.
I really didn't think this through...I've got so many issues, and Mikuo doesn't deserve to have to deal with any of it...
Would it be better if...
No.
No, he wouldn't...
It wouldn't be better...
He...he cares about me, right?
He wouldn't leave me for...
He could
At any time
Anyone is better than you
Especially someone he already has feelings for
I need to get over myself.
If I just suck it up, and keep everything to myself, then Mikuo will be happy. He deserves so much better to be happy. He can have a normal relationship, and I can...hopefully handle this mess.
...
Hopefully...
--Gumiya
