♥ISHQ♥~journey from crush to love

Chapter 46

Next morning kru was waiting for avu on breakfast table to apologise her for last night she was waiting from a long time still there was no sign of her coming finally she stood up to call her she went to her room & opened the door she found no one was there she checked in other rooms too she found whole house empty she knows her dad & jai went on business trip & she thought her mother went to office she checked her car is in parking strange she thought where she gone without her car she was hell worried now she first called to bhavesh & told him everything he asked her to calm down and once ask from other frnds she added everyone on conf & asked if they know where she is, everyone said no they were so worried when rii asked her
"but kru last night when I dropped her she wasn't well where she gone without informing anyone does smtg happened again?"
"again means?" everyone asked him
"was she with u last night?"abhi asked him
"yes bhai she had a panic attack yesterday , so I took her out for fresh air so that she can feel better"
"WHAT" everyone shouted
"no rii I think u misunderstood smtg , she dont get panic attacks anymore" kru said
"he is right krupa yesterday when I returned pendant I told her that I know about tushar & her then she started shivering , sweating she got a panic attack yesterday"sid told her
"shit shit shit I messed up"
"what happened after I dropped her?"
"we had an argument & she was hurt badly , god Im so bad"
"relax krupa dont worry we are coming" with that they ended the call

They all reached in 10 mins they saw kru sitting on sofa all worried

Bhavesh went & hugged her she was crying in his arms
"bhav Im so bad I hurted her badly"
"shhh calm down ntg will happen to her ,and she knows you she won't be mad at u , she's your muski she loves you baby chup hoja"
Her phone rang she ran to pick her phone hoping it would be muski's but it was a facetime from jai she didn't saw the caller id & answered the call
After looking at her tear stained face he asked her what happened
& she told him everything

They heard doorbell they see SA coming
"mom do u know where's muski"
"she went to jalandhar"she answered
"how could u let her go mom that too alone & she again got panic attack yesterday y dont u tell us" kru & jai asked
"shut up both of u Im your mother I know whats good for my daughter & for now its better for her to stay away from u all"
"fine Im going to jalandhar today itself"jai said
"dare u do that Ill kick u out of my house & not even let u talk with your muski , u both should have thought about this before breaking your promise"
"but why mom"
"because she dont want to meet anyone of u , she dont want to hear anymore lies, she dont want to take anymore blames"
"sorry mom\aunty we know its our fault we are extremely sorry"

She went near krupa & wiped her tears cupped her face with both her hands

"krupa Im not blaming u or anyone here , its just she want some time for herself alone , away from all these , I know ur intentions are good, u all just want good for her but for once try to think from her pov I know kru tush was your brother out of everyone u have the most rights on him but kru she loved him more than anything in this world she cant just move on ,there are thousands of things running in her mind to clear her mind she needs peace , just herself no one else &Im sure when she'll return she'll have answers & that are going to be in your favour siddharth leave her alone for sometime"
"but mom.."
"jai I already arranged security for her & she's going to stay in our old house stop worrying abt her safety & also no one's going to jalandhar without my permission understood?"
"okay"they said reluctantly
"good" with that she left for her office

"now what should we do?"anushka asked
"we have to think smtg we can't sit idle here" abhi replied
They looked at sid who was looking so upset ash and abhi went near him "Its all my fault ash , bhai she is going through all these just because of me ,
I dont want to lose her bhai"
Ash kept her hand on his shoulder "sid remember what you said me that day after you confessed her, no matter what you will always support her and always keep her happy, I think she need this time to explore her feelings"

"ash she already loves me, I can see that in her eyes but...but there's something which is stopping her and I dont know why I think its not tushar"sid said

They all were thinking when kru said
"I think jai we should talk to vii bhaiya he know muski too well & she will listen to him"
"right" jai exclaimed
"who's this vii bhaiya?" sid asked
"vihaan mehra bhai's bestfrnd cum brother he is also bestfrnd with avu they know eachother so well"kru explained
"& he is full of attitude" reem & vaish said rolling their eyes
"he is not, it just he behaves coldly with others but he is super cool & fun with his loved ones" kru defended him while jai added him on call
Soon he picked the call
"helloooo champ , heyya partner how r u both & where's my chorni"they all heard him
"hiii bhaiya we r not good I need your help"
"bolna partner kya hua , tere bf ne kuch kiya Ill see him"he said
"nhi bro woh toh khud isse darta hai" jai said
"shut up jai , we have a serious issue here to look after"
"ok fine kru bol kya hua & where's chorni"he asked
"yeh chorni kaun hai?"ash whispered to  abhi
"avu" he replied
"but chorni kyu" she asked again
"dont know" he whispered back
"bhaiya actually na hua yeh ki......"kru & jai told him whatever happened

"ohh god I feel like come & hit u both so hard ,there's a limit for everything guys & u pushed her beyond her limits , do u guys understand she's already living in a guilt usse abhi bhi lagta hai ki tush ki death uski wajah se hui hai the reason she isn't able to forget anything & kru I know whatever u said u didn't meant anything but...it hurted her really badly & u both also knows what promises means to her"
"I know bhaiya it's my fault we shouldn't have broken our promise but bhai that day I saw the pain in his eyes & he was saying bad about bhai I just couldn't control myself  & told everything but I didnt realise what will be her reaction after knowing the truth & yesterday I crossed all limits , after his death she cared for me exactly like he used to , she pampered me like him , she didn't let me miss him & I..she's mad at me bhaiya , she hates me now"

"shh..baby chup hoja relax kru she doesn't hates u ,she just can't , look kruu if u want her to listen to u even u have to listen to her u have to understand her ,agar tum log he usse nhi samjoge toh woh kis se expect karegi out of all people u two know her since childhood u saw their bond u both know what tush means to muski  kru woh tush ko kabhi nhi bhul sakti hai her whole world used to revolve around him chuk it off he was her whole world ,guys she dont need to forget tush to move on in life she just need to accept that tush is not gonna return she has to accept sm1 else in her life and we dont just love our bf\gfs right we love our frnds too & they were bestfrnds the inseparables kind of,  soulmate isnt necessary to be our lover it can be our frnds too & they were soulmates
She hasn't moved on because she doesn't want to because moving on is hard for some people its hard to accept the things in the way they are
Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows
& jai I know what u r worrying about but dont worry ur dii is strong woh tush ki musu hai tush ne usse sab kuch face karna sikhaya hai woh tush ko nhi bhool sakti na toh tush ki baaton ko bhi nhi bhoolegi
She'll never harm herself dont worry about that let her live alone for some time she need that space & Im coming India next week Ill directly visit jalandhar till then let her live on her own & dont worry about security Ill take care of that okay?"

They both nodded
"good now bye, stop crying okay Ill take care of my chorni"
"byee"they ended the call