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AS I LEANED AGAINST THE KITCHEN ISLAND, SHIFTING BACK AND FORTH,
i couldn't help but fill with anxiety as april, tatiana, mel, steph and britt were staring at me, waiting for some type of response of what april had brought up.
it was the annual christmas party at the bergeron, and i couldn't help but wonder why the hell she was bringing this up now.
"i know that you're hesitant, and i know that you've built yourself up a wall that nobody's been able to break down, but you can't keep ignoring what you feel."mel started, as i looked down at the kitchen island, seriously still wanting to avoid this topic but i knew she was right.
"whether that be happy, sad, angry, depressed, excited, whatever it is you can't keep it bottled up anymore,"mel went on, "especially when it comes to jd."
"what's that supposed to mean?"i questioned, my voice barely above a whisper, but loud enough for everyone to hear.
"it means that you don't need to shut him out from anything, especially when you know he won't get mad at you for it."steph backed up mel, and i bit my lip out of nervousness, something that had come about the last couple weeks.
"i don't shut him out."i lied, and i knew it too.
i shut him out like i shut everyone out, and yet he was the one person who was the closest to breaking down that wall.
i saw tatiana giving me a look out of the corner of my eye, and i kept my head down, hating the fact that they were right.
"bris, think about it."april started up, "jake has quiet literally been the one person you go to no matter what."
"no i don't."i denied, lying to both them and myself once more, and april chuckled.
"yes you do."april pushed, "you went to him that one night after you first got out of the hospital in the end of last year, he's the one who took you to the jail to see john-"
"you went and saw him?"britt, tatiana, and steph looked at me like i was nuts, and i shook my head.
"talk about it another time."
"you were there for him after the game seven loss, he was there for you when you had your knee surgery,"april continued on, and i shook my head.
"all friends do that april."i argued, and i saw april's eyes bug out.
"bristol he quite literally asked you to spend the summer with him because he didn't want to be that far away from you!"
the five of us froze, seeing april with her mouth gaping open, in utter shock and frustration.
"bristol just admit it! you love him and he is your person!"
"why are you bringing this up now?"i questioned, surprised at the fact she was going on a tangent about this.
