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"YOU LOOK AWESOME!"
jd beamed as i walked out, pulling off taylor swifts "sparks fly" costume from her speak now tour, and my hair was in pretty curls.
"thanks."i smiled, putting some red lipstick on, "you ready to go to the party?"i asked and he nodded, before the two of us left.
the two of us talked about anything under the sun, and somehow we got back to fortnite.
"you seriously think you could beat me 1 on 1?"i asked, and he nodded, "100%."
"my travis scott skin can beat your default skin anytime."he teased, and i gasped, "it's a soccer skin thank you very much!"
"default!"he argued as we pulled up, and i rolled my eyes, "your travis scott skin is boring!"
i got out, doing my best to quickly get to the door before he did but with my knee still not fully healed i was limping.
he quickly caught up and i frowned as he opened the door for me.
"please be careful of your knee." he told me, and i sighed,
"no promises!"
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[ tw// mentions of abuse, ]
LATER THAT NIGHT AND A FEW DRINKS IN,
i sat at a table with mel, steph tatiana, katrina and april who had come with matt, talking.
"so when is this you and jd thing happening?"april hinted, and i rose an eyebrow at her as i took a sip of my halloween margarita.
"never."i told her, and mel rose an eyebrow at me, "bullshit."
i laughed, shaking my head, "you may call bullshit but i however do not."
"look i'm still not ready for a relationship yet. not after john." i told them thinking back to earlier this year and what he said.
"and you don't have to be ready. if you're not ready that's perfectly fine."steph told me, and i glanced over at jd, seeing him laughing with matt, charlie mcavoy, and brandon carlo.
i downed the rest of my margarita, biting my lip wondering if i wanted to tell them or not about my trip.
"you okay?"april asked, noticing i was starting to get a little bit anxious, and i got up, grabbing tequila before coming back.
"i went and saw john in prison in february."i blurted out, and i saw april's eyes soften.
"why?"april asked, and i played with the rim of my cup.
"that west coast road trip i couldn't even shut my eyes without seeing him."i took a deep breath, "whenever i tried to sleep, trying to focus on something, i saw him and i was sick of it."
"so i went to the jail and confronted him."i went on, and took a baby sip of the tequila.
"jake went with me, and i honest to god don't know why i went either. maybe i wanted closure, i don't remember."i took a deep breath, taking a big sip of the tequila, "i remember flipping out on john, and him telling me jake was the one for me."
"but when the court date came he was the same guy i knew who would beat me senseless for just god damn breathing."i took a deep breath before getting up and walking out.
the only people who knew about the court date were april and sadie.
jake wasn't able to come due to being on a road trip and i had to stay behind because of the court date, and i'd meet them but i never went on the road trip.
"are you okay?"april asked, breaking me out of my thoughts and i nodded.
"i don't like talking about it. i'm sorry i didn't tell you i went to go see john." i told her as she wrapped me in a hug.
"bris don't worry about it. i'm not mad."she told me, and she brought me to her car so we could sit and talk like we would in college.
"did you ever tell jd about the court date?" april asked and i shook my head no, "i never brought it up. if he asked if i was okay i'd tell him i was fine."
"john got sentenced to ten years in prison and i figured it'd all be over you know?"i asked her, looking over at her, and she gave me a sad smile.
"the nightmares don't happen a lot anymore, i'm happy with what friendship i have with jd and everyone else around me but there's always going to be that fear in the back of my mind that something bad is just going to happen."i told april, and she gave me a side hug the best she could.
"it takes time and it's going to. time is one of the only healers."she explained, and tears pricked at my eyes.
"i want it to heal faster."i whispered, and she wrapped me in a tight hug.
