our darkened love

what this is, is frustration at it's finest

Going to the outside, kiet then eyed there hand holding to then smile a bit, has they went away from the house, kiet then turned his head to eye.
If my father or to anyone is too see this.....
Kiet then turned his head back to then try to take his hand away, with not any strong desire to fully wish for that.
Decha has they walked then held to his hand a bit tighter, he was not going to let him go.
Kiet made a face to then hang his head has they walked to feel that one emotion he knew all to well, but couldn't place a finger to it.
Going to the forest that surrounded the grounds, they went further, hand in hand, to go to the beach.
To the sand, decha then pulled kiet down, for them to continue to hold the others hand, to sit to look forward.
Kiets eyes darted, to then peer them to there hands that were still together.
He then turned his head to fully eye.
"Um.... decha?"
Kiet then tried to take his hand back to no avail once again.
Decha held it tighter to continue to look forward.
"You can try kiet, but I am not going to let it go."
Kiet stopped to then eye decha.
"Why.... Are you doing such an act?"
Decha then hung his head to then play with his free hand to the sand to eye.
"You.... Were very.....stoic kiet.....I do not believe what you told me to be of the truth, am I to be a bother to you?"
Kiet made a face to then turn his head, to then take his free hand to extend a finger to then draw upon the sand has well to not right against there hands holding.
"No decha, just.....has something to my mind, nothing more, should not have let that spill out onto you, I am very apologetic."
Decha turned his head to eye.
"If I am ever to be, please let me too know."
Kiet rolled his eyes, to then turn his head to fully eye with a smirk.
"That shall never come to pass decha, you are not a bother."
Kiet then tightened his hand to dechas.
Decha smiled and wide to then move closer to place his head to kiets shoulder to then look forward to watch the waves feeling content.
Kiet kept his eyes to dechas head to then turn them into slits, that overwhelming emotion he has had for since he could remember was upon him.
Kiet then parted his lips to then widen his eyes, he then turned his head to look forward, to make a face.
Oh.... No....
Kiet then took his hand away from his to immediately stand to step to the ocean to wrap his arms about himself to flex his jaw.
Decha pulled his legs to his chest to wrap his arms about himself to place his chin to his knee to eye kiets back.
"Kiet?"
Kiet shook his head.
Decha made a face to look to the sand.
"Am.....I being of the bother?"
Kiet looked to the darken sky to dart his eyes.
"No...... You are not, I..... Did try to.... Let go of your hand earlier, we can not do such, you know of this, also I know..... Brothers do not hold hands in such a manner...." He mumbled.
Decha pouted.
"I.... Apologize, my brother, I can tell the sun shall be upon us of soon.... Let us part...."
Decha then got up to then turn to go back.
Kiet hung his head to look down to his tightened pants that started to loosen, to then bend down to gather a rock to then throw and far to the sea in his frustration.
He stepped back to shake his head.
Kiet then turned to follow decha, he stayed a bit behind to keep his arms about himself to look down.
They went back to the house in silence. Has they went back they went to the hallway where both there rooms to be, for decha to go to his, kiet stopped his movement to then turn his head to eye.
"What..... Are you too be doing decha?"
Decha placed his hand to the door nob to eye.
"Has of this day, I should sleep too my room, my brother."
Kiets lips parted to watch has decha adjourn to his room, to then close the door behind.
Kiet looked down with sorrowful eyes to then turn his head to then go to his room, alone.
To the inside, he placed his body to the door, to keep looking to the floor.
Gritting his teeth, kiet then went forth to go to his bed to then lay to it on his side, to then go to his stomach to then lay a flat hand to the side to wish decha was to be there.
Feeling that overwhelming emotion once more, he then got up quick, to go straight to his desk to then open the books that laid to it to, to try and stop thinking about what he was too be feeling.
Awhile later, kiet peered his eyes up to then turn his head.
Decha was there, with his back to the door, to then raise an hand to rub his eye.
Kiet looked him up and down.
Decha then placed his hand down to then eye kiet very tired.
Kiet turned his head to then eye the book once more.
He then motioned with his head for decha to go to his bed to retire for the day.
Decha smiled to then go about to do just that.
Kiet then turned his head has decha had stopped before it, to eye a bit confused, he could smell kiets scent, he then turned his head to eye kiet, who looked him up and down to then turn his head back to eye the book.
Decha looked him up and down to then get upon the bed to go under the blanket to sit to then take his hands up to his ribbon to take it off to his wrist, to then eye kiet.
"Do you..... Need to read? I.... Really can not of sleep.... Can you....."
Kiet looked up.
"Decha..... You know of the better, I can not even sleep due to my illness my father had told of us.... Also you know what my father shall do if he catches us in such away...... Again....."
Decha frowned to then lay down to be too his side.
"Please....."
Kiet signed to then close the book to then get up to go to decha, to do something they had not done since they were infants to there crib.
Lay to his side, to move close to place his hands to his, to eye.
"Go to sleep decha..... My brother."
Decha made a face to then mine his head up and down to then let out a sign to then do just that.
Kiet smiled to keep his eyes upon him.
See you..... To the night..... My decha.....
Kiet closed his eyes to wish he could fall asleep with decha to know he never could, for his father kept him unaware to what he truly was, which was about to come to light.