Nobody Loves Me Like You Do

Chapter 23: Jealousy, Jealousy

TW: small almost panic attack

"Hey honey," Blaine says, sitting next to me and placing a cup of coffee on the table. "How was lunch?"

I smile at my boyfriend, "It was great. Finn and Rach are back together again although I'm not sure how long that's going to last."

"Well good for them. I have a feeling they are going to last this time."

I scoff and take a sip of the steaming drink, "As long as one of them doesn't cheat again."

Blaine squeezes my hand and I smile at him. My mood drops as I see a tall brown-haired boy walk towards our table. Ever since Sebastian transferred to Dalton my life has been a wreck. There is rarely a time when Blaine and I can go out on a date and not see him, Blaine always wants to hang out with him for some reason. Something about him being the funniest person ever. The truth is, Sebastian Smythe is a dick. He is rude, he is condescending, and it is so obvious that he is manipulating everyone around him. Even Nick likes him at this point.

"How are the lovebirds? Haven't broken up yet?" Sebastian sits a bit too close to Blaine.

I wrinkle my nose at him in annoyance, "Nope, happier than ever thanks so much for asking."

Blaine stands up uncomfortably, "I'm gonna go get more coffee."

He pecks me on the cheek and I smile at him. I turn my focus back to the boy sitting to the side of me, "What do you want, Meerkat?"

"Oh, nothing, nothing at all. Just saw you guys and wanted to say hi," he holds his hands up in fake surrender.

"You seem to be doing that a lot lately, don'tcha think?"

"So what? You think I'm stalking you or something?"

I roll my eyes at him, "Is this a confession?"

He smirks, "And why do you think I would be stalking you, Hummel? Think I'm in love with you?"

"No, but you clearly have a thing for my boyfriend," I send a murderous glare at him.

"Who wouldn't?" Sebastian asks. "Blaine is one hot piece of ass. Plus, you two are bound to break up sooner or later. He's too good for you."

"Excuse me?"

"Read my lips, Hummel. Blaine is way out of your league. I mean look at yourself, why would he like someone as... uptight as you? Someone who is so desperate for love that he will kiss his high school bully in order to have some sort of experience."

My heart rate speeds up at the memory. The cold metal lockers, the pain in his shoulders as he was shoved into the sharp handles, the fear and shame of being so weak. I can feel my throat start to close up and tears threaten to spill over. Deep breaths. In and out. You can't give him the satisfaction of winning. I shove the feeling away and lock up all of the thoughts away in a box labeled cry about late at night in the bathtub.

"And you think you are good enough? You think that Blaine would want someone who puts others down for the good of themselves? You think he would want someone as manipulative as you? And you say that I'm desperate, but clearly, you must be just as desperate if you are going after someone who isn't single? Are there no other single gays in the area that want you?" I shoot back.

His face contorts with anger, "No, just too many broken hearts. I needed a challenge. Blaine just doesn't know what he wants yet. Once he realizes that you are too much of a girl to give it up."

I am so close to strangling this guy. Luckily Blaine is back, he scooches his chair closer to mine. I give Sebastian an arrogant smile.

"What were you two talking about?" Blaine asks.

Sebastian beams, "When you two are going to come out clubbing with me!"

Blaine looks nervous, "Oh, um thanks for the invite, but that isn't really our scene."

"Let's do it!"

Shit no, why did I say that?

"Kurt, are you sure?"

No!

"Yeah! I'm sure it will be a blast."

My boyfriend's eyes go wide, he shifts uncomfortably, "Alright then. When were you thinking?"

"How about this weekend?" Sebastian suggests. "Unless you two have plans? Maybe staying in? Watching a cheesy rom-com?"

"Actually-" Blaine starts.

I cut him off, "This weekend sounds great. Now we should probably go, we have some things to do."

I take Blaine's hand and drag him out of the coffee shop. I open the car door for him like a gentleman and then walk over to the other side to get into the driver's seat. The ride back to school is silent. I keep all my focus on the road and try not to think about all the things Sebastian said to me. I'm not desperate right? I'm not that uptight. I'm good enough for Blaine. I peel my eyes away from the road to look at him. He has a light blush dusting his cheeks, the light is shining perfectly on his flawless skin, his lips are a beautiful shade of pink. He's right. Blaine is too good for me. I don't deserve him.

I pull into the parking lot of the school and shut off the engine. We sit quietly in the car. I stare out in front of me not knowing what to say. Blaine seems to be doing the same thing. I take a deep breath.

"I'm sorry about earlier. We can cancel if you don't want to go, I just thought it might be fun..." I trail off.

"If you want to go, I'm all for it. I just want to make sure that you are doing this because you want to," he takes my hand.

I turn towards him, "Why else would I be doing it?"

"I don't know. You seem to be a bit jealous of Sebastian and I just want you to know that you don't have to prove yourself or anything."

"Why would I be jealous of Sebastian?" I spit his name out. I pause and look at Blaine a bit closer. "Should I be jealous of Sebastian?"

Blaine pulls my face close to his, "You have nothing to be jealous of. Sebastian and I are just friends. You are my boyfriend."

My eyes start to water, I close the gap between us and kiss him sweetly. He kisses back with just as much passion. After a while, we pull away from each other. I stare into his beautiful eyes. Even with everything, he said to me I still can't shake the feeling that Sebastian is right, that I'm not good enough, that I don't deserve the gorgeous boy sitting in front of me.

Hope you like this new chapter! Next will be the bar scene. Hope you all are doing good! Feel free to give me feedback!

~Lacy