Nobody Loves Me Like You Do

Chapter 13: Gap Attack

Dear Blaine,

Today has got to have been one of the hardest days of my life. I really thought that you had feelings for me. I know I was in way over my head, but I don't know. The way you kept looking at me like you had a secret, the way you were kind enough to buy me coffee. Even the fact that you knew my coffee order made my day. I know that I was reading way too much into it. I guess I just thought, I hoped that you felt the same way I do. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy that you have a chance with Mr. Junior-Manager-of-the-Gap, but I know it's going to hurt. Seeing you with him from now on. Obviously, it's going to happen, who would say no to someone as beautiful, talented, kind, funny, smart as you. I'm rambling, Nick said this would be a good way to get my feelings under control. This will never be sent, well, I hope it will never be sent. Bottom line is; I've been hopelessly in love with you since we met at the Lima Bean.

Love, Kurt

The door to my room opens up and I slam the book shut blushing a lot. Blaine walks in with a bag and smiles at me.

"Hey, are you feeling better? Nick told us that you ate something bad at lunch," he asks.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm ok," I stammer. "What's in the bag?"

He glances down, "Oh! I got you some soup from that place you told me you loved, also I got you some chocolate and rented Moulin Rouge so we could watch together!"

I smile widely before remembering that the only reason he is doing this is because he is an amazing friend, not because he likes me or anything.

"Thank you, you really didn't have to do anything like this, I would have been fine on my own," I say.

"Oh come on! It's the day before Valentine's Day (sorry if I didn't say that in the last chapter) you should be as healthy as you can for tomorrow. Who knows, you might have a glorious secret admirer."

I roll my eyes at that, "Riiiiiiight."

He grins and pulls out the food he got for us, "Well, I for one am very excited for tomorrow. Do you think he's going to like the performance?"

"Yeah, yeah, I don't see why he wouldn't. I mean I would never be able to say no to you?" I admit without thinking.

"What?"

"Oh, um, nothing I just meant. I-if I was to be asked out by someone I would love a song..."

"Right," Blaine responds awkwardly. "Well, here is your soup, let me go turn the movie on."

I thank him quietly and take a spoonful of the soup to my mouth. It's chicken noodle, my favorite. He lays on the bed next to me after turning the T.V. on. I try to ignore how close we are, how nice he smells, how much I want to just lay my head on his chest and have him kiss my forehead. No! I scold myself you can not start thinking like that. Not now when he is in love with someone else.

We finish our food and he yawns stretching. His arm ends up around my shoulders making me go stiff. I glance up at him and blush, Blaine is watching the movie intensely mouthing along to the song lyrics. I focus my attention on the screen and feel my eyes start to drop.

~A few hours later~

I wake up suddenly feeling a body of warmth near me. I try to move my arms to rub my eyes but find that they are wrapped around..... Blaine. My head was on his chest and I was cuddling with him. My heart pounds in my chest and my breath catches. I sit up a tiny bit careful not to wake Blaine up, the clock sits next to my bed and reads 4:59. I'm lucky I caught the alarm before it went off. I carefully slide my arm out from under him trying to not make any sudden movements. After about 10 minutes of struggling, I give up and shake him softly.