Is this what you wanted? | Book 1 in the Wanted series

Prolouge

Sophomore year

" Jesus lani, you're always goddamn overreacting! " he runs his hands through his hair frustrated. What the actual fuck?? I'm overreacting??? I cant believe this shit. YEARS. Fucking years. I don't- why?
I take a couple steps towards him, my lip trembling
and hands shaking. Out of all days...

He has to leave.

Me.
Me.

I feel so fucking selfish, but he had to leave today?? I don't fucking have anyone else...
Fuck am I going to do?
" I just don't fucking know why u have to leave me!" I scream. "You know that I've been through this shit before and you're being a hypocrite and doing the same goddamn thing " slightly screaming, adrenaline rushing through me as a pace back and fourth wondering why he's doing the same thing that broke me years ago..

He chuckles lightly before taking a step back.
" Are u seriously blaming me? What the fuck, I thought u were better than that. Don't you dare compare me to him when u know I'm not doing this shit intentionally to hurt you "

How could he possibly not be doing this intentionally, if he's already hurt me?
Forcing tears back I turn to walk away but looking back at him hopefully not being the last time.
"Kingston, if u leave out that door, I don't ever wanna see your face again what so ever " I said softly.
Please stay. God please make him stay. He stares at me wide eyed, once masked with regret but soon changed with anger.
" You can't be serious? You know I can't stay. "
Shaking my head lightly, before meeting his gaze again,
" I don't know shit." I scolded " Why are u doing this? Why can't u stay? I fucking need u, you know I need u, so why not stay for me? For us? " I pleaded.
I never was once the type to beg, or plead but silas knows that I've seen the person I thought I loved the most leave and never look back. What if he forgets me? Forgets our friends? Move on and find a different set of people that make him happy?
Like I wasn't there.

For him.
"There was never an us, you were the only one who wanted an us. You are so goddamn oblivious kalani." he said while staring into my eyes.
I stared at him confused, then walking up to him not meeting his gaze

"wh- Kingston what are u talking about ?"
He shakes his head before saying the words I thought I'd never hear.
"I mean come on kalani? You can't be that fucking dense that u couldn't sense it? Can't u fucking see why I didn't like having u around me when I came to school? You clung onto me like I was your goddamn boyfriend, wanting me to always sit with u, getting mad when I left to hang out with different girls. I only used u. Stop being fucking delusional and get a fucking grip and start to understand that you're not fucking needed. People are going to leave u. Maybe just how your father did. Everyone's getting tired of u. You see why he left? Because of u. It's always going to be u "

Digging my nails into my palm forcing myself to look at him. I don't know why he's doing this? Was I really the cause of my father leaving? Was I the one who made my family break up?
A thousand questions run through my head as I opened my mouth to speak,
"leave. Go"

He scoffed and rolled his eyes

"what do u mean leave ? Cant handle what anyone has to say about the poor deadbeat daddy dearest?"

Before I knew it, my hand came across his face, wincing at the sound of the smack, I took a few steps toward him
"Don't u dare speak to me that way. Leave. I cant do this anymore" My heart hurts so much. I cant believe he would even use that against me after all the shit I've been through. It was so fucked.
"Please just leave and don't think about contacting me once u leave out that door. Forget everything about me. I never wanna see your face again "
"lan- " he starts but I cut him off before he can hurt me more than he's already did.

"I fucking hate u." I spit out furiously. "Please remember this moment and remember why u did this. please just go."I pleaded angrily.

Taken aback by my words he still stood there looking at me in disbelief and regret

" you don't mean that "

I scoffed, wiping my tears frustratedly, not letting him having the decency to see me cry

" I do. I hate u with every bone in my body " I say meaning every word.

" yo- "

" GOD JUST FUCKING LEAVE, GO SILAS SINCE THATS WHAT U WANTED TO DO ALL ALONG! FUCK! JUST LEAVE " I screamed, tears forming in my eyes, before realizing how close we actually were. The closets we've gotten all year...

Flinching a the slightest, he took a step back before walking towards the door, leaving me shaking and crying.
I felt him looking back once more before twisting the knob and never seen again..

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