Kalani's POV
" FUCK! FUCK! FUCKKKK! " gripping onto my steering wheel tightly, I sped down the street home.
I hate him so much. And the fucking fact that he thinks he has the audacity to show up and try to say sorry? After years and years? Bullshit.
I feel like a coward. Letting a damn tear fall in front of him. He doesn't deserve to see me cry. I'm supposed to be strong. What the hell am I supposed to do now that he's here?
He's partnering with the model industry I work for so I'm pretty sure that I'm gonna bump into him from time to time.
The hate I have for him is ridiculous. He left me all by my fucking self 6 years ago, loathing in pain and hurt by myself. He doesn't deserve to see me. He's a self absorbed asshole who only cares about his goddamn self.
" god how could I be so stupid " I murmured, tears fulfilling my eyes. Fuck why am I crying.
Keep it together lani u got this okay?
Fuck you know I'm trying but I can't for the life of me.
You could always forgive him and move past all of this you know?
Yeah you- no I will not forgive him. He deserves to feel the same pain I've felt for the past 6 years.
But that's selfish lani?
I don't care.
Pulling into a park, I head over to a local ice cream shop. God ice cream fixes everything. Grabbing my purse and keys I enter the shop. I'm surprised it's open it's 11 o'clock.
" hello my name is Marie, what can I get for you "
" hi ermmm, can I please get a small cookies and cream with gummy bears on the side " gummy bears make everything better.
" yes is that all ? "
" yes that's it "
" your total is $14.67 "
WHAT THE HELL? Why the fuck is Ice scream so expensive. I asked for a small to... I'm in desperate need of ice scream but I guess tonight is not the night to get ice cream.
" no never mind forget it, because why the hell is your ice cream so fucking expensive? " I say angrily.
I storm out of the shop and continue to walk. I didn't go to my car because I needed to take a walk.
I have never been this stressed in years. Silas waltz in here like he's the shit and tried to fucking apologize to me, and I can't even buy my fucking ice cream.
Walking and walking and walking is all I did for the past 15 minutes. Hearing a car from behind me honk, I continue to walk.
" kalani? "
Who the he-
Wait-
" Silas what the fuck are u doing? " what the hell? Why couldn't he just leave me alone like any other regular person.
" lani are u crying? Why are u crying? " he asks worriedly. Fuck him being worried about me. He has no fucking right.
" why the hell do u care ? Leave me alone Silas " he's making me angrier by the minute. God just fucking leave already.
" believe it or not, people care about u kalani " he says.
" well stop fucking caring Silas. God? What the hell do u what from me? " I let out a forced chuckle and turn around to walk back to my car. Seeing as if he wasn't going to leave me alone his car starts to back up slowly following me.
" kalani please? I need u to forgive me. I miss u like crazy! I'm fucking sorry okay? "
I stop in my tracks and turn towards his car. He slowly gets out the car and head towards me.
" leave me the fuck alone Silas. Go home. Don't think for a goddamn second u have the nerve to come here and apologize. Fuck u and your apology. Stop worrying about me. "
Even though I needed closure of to why he fucking left, I just couldn't bring myself to ask him. I'm fucking scared that whatever he has to say wasn't as important as what I was going through. And I hate my myself for feeling this way. I hate that I feel as though I have to be selfish to protect my own feelings. I fucking hate it so much.
" I cant tell u fully why I left lani, but know that I'm so fucking sorry for what I did to u. I miss u more than anything. Please lani " he begged. Fuck he's making this harder than what it has to be.
" No. I cant forgive you until u tell me why u left me. When u figure your shit out, come see me. Goodnight Silas "
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well... Silas has some explaining to do..
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