Is this what you wanted? | Book 1 in the Wanted series

Crap

Kalani's POV

A couple minutes later we pull into a small Italian restaurant. It's on the other side of town but it's beautiful. It has a small town library attached to it on the top.

" I come here all the time, to read and eat of course. Come on " Silas says. He turns off the car and rushes over my side to open my door. He's been really weird. Giving him a nod I grab my bag and step out of the car.

I cant lie to you.. Silas looks good. He's definitely taken care of himself over these past couple years. And I respect that. I expected him to.

As we enter, a lady escorts us to a small stable in the back and hands up menus. We sit across from each other and while he looks at his menu, I take a second to take in everything that has grown about him in the last 6 years.

He's even more prettier than the last time. His jaw is stronger, much more rings on his fingers. The same green eyes, just darker. Looking into them, he looks lost. Very lost. His hairs a messy mess. But it's a cute messy. He never did anything to his hair back in high school , but I wouldn't except him to. It's Silas, he's used to be lazy as shit. I'm still not sure but he's definitely one uped himself these past few years.

" So.. " he states setting the menu down.

Looking down at my lap, I pick at the thread on my sweatpants. God why is this so fucking awkward Jesus.

" look Silas I don't know what u want from me.. Cut to the shit and tell me why'd u want to take me out to lunch? " I say. I don't mean to come off rude but I don't know how he possibly thinks that he can Waltz in here years later with no explanation.

He drags his hair down his face and rubs the side of his face. Letting out a long sigh, he stares at the menu.

" I-I- fuck I don't know kalani. I miss you okay? I miss us? "

I chuckle and grip the table cloth lightly. Is he fucking serious?

" No Silas. You don't get to say shit like that. You don't miss me. There was never an us right? Remember what u said? There was never an us. At all. So don't fucking act like there's one now. "

" I didn't mean all of that back in highschool. I was just- I was angry. I don't know why I said that. I wish I could tell u why I left. I wish I could. But I would hate for u to hate me. I don't want u to think differently of me. "

I scoff and look him dead in his eye. " do u know the shit I went through? I needed u Silas. Fuck. I needed u more than anything. And I don't wanna be selfish and make it seem like whatever ur reasoning for leaving was invalid. Because no, that's not it. "

Jesus kalani. Could u be any more subtle?

Before he can respond, the waitress come over and eyes him up and down and smirks.

Gross wth.

" Hello, what can I get u to drink? " she asks silas.

" Just water. Sparkling. "

She then turns to me with a scowl. Jeez what the hell is up with her? Like common decency doesn't excuse around here?!?!?!

" just water. Plain " I say.

" okay, I'll be right back with your drinks " She gives one more look at Silas, and tries to wink. Well i think she was trying to wink. Or maybe she had something in her eye and was trying to get it out.

I turn back to Silas, only to see him already looking at me..

" What Silas ? "

He runs his hands down his face, and looks at me while moving closer. He turns his head and pushes my chair towards him with one arm.

" Come on kalani. Don't be like this. Can I prove to u that I miss u? Please? It's the least I can do. I cant tell u why I left until shit gets cleared. "

Shit gets cleared wh- what is he talking about? What shit needs to be cleared?

" No. why would I wanna spend a day with u Silas? Huh? Tell me why?!?!?! " I ask. I cant believe him, I mean u cant expect me to say yes can u?

" Because lani.. you miss me and u cant deny it. I know before I let u told me that u hated me, and I don't know if it's still true... I'm hoping it's not but I just wanna make it up to you. Only if u let me. Please. "

He's right I didn't deny it. I did miss him. And I fucking hated the thought of it. I hated him with everything when he left.... The least he could do is make me feel like he's not that much of a dick.

" okay. " I say in a small whisper.

He sits up abruptly an raises his eyebrows, " Okay? That's it? You're gonna let me make it up to u? "

I turn my body to him and let out a small sigh. " Yes. Only today. Don't fuck it up because if u do then that's it. "

" okay lani "

HEHEHEHE hello.

Bye I'm so late to updating ew.

I've been focusing on school and other stuff so sorry for that inconvenience.

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