Irrational

Chapter 16 - Uncontrollable

Unknown to you, Strange had disappeared in a fit of jealousy, but you and Bucky were too busy in the training room. Actually training.

Bucky had a few new tricks he started remembering from war.

Little tips and tricks he thought were lost, so he was showing you them and teaching you them.

Bucky thought you didn’t need to know them but enjoyed the fact you went along with him anyway, but the truth was, you did need to know.

The reason Tony had to build you back up, was because you lost all faith in yourself, shortly before New York for personal reasons.

He brought you along to New York hoping the extreme need to let out anger would allow you to let loose to believe in yourself again.

It didn’t.

The horrible beating you took made you worse.

You lost complete faith in yourself. Making it impossible to access your powers and connect with the elements.

So Tony told you, without any arguments that you were to take any advise anyone gives you on hand to hand combat and practice it, to defend yourself... in case it happens again.

Natasha was the only other person who knew.

To avoid the team doubting you, which would cause you to doubt yourself. Again.

So, you did actually enjoy and need the training session with Bucky. You had spent 3 hours training and was dripping down your neck and chest with sweat.

Bucky got so hot and sweaty, he stripped himself off his top halfway through the session.

Looking more delicious than he did all them years ago.

You wouldn’t break your arrangement.

But you were still human, still a woman and he was something else.

“You had enough for today Y/N?” Bucky panted, taking a chugged of water afterward.

Trying to catch your breathe “with this part of training, yeah. Got my own I need to do” You point towards your elements room.

He turns and nods in understanding and then contemplates whether to ask the next question, which you spot.

“Do you want to watch Bucky?” You giggle.

“How did you know?” He asks surprised and laughing.

“I can read people that’s all. Stick around if you want, but I’d recommend staying outside, I have a lot of built up anger and there’s some heft rocks in there” you warn him with a stern voice.

He nods and holds his hands up in surrender “no arguments here, I’ll stay here” he points to a large stool situated by one of the windows of the training room, which Tony placed there to keep an eye on you.

You walk into your room and don’t even go gentle or start off slowly.

Your eyes are dancing again, you are enraged with yourself for allowing Strange and now Bucky under skin.

A tornado of air, debris, water and fire surrounded you but again not touching you.

You decided to bring the chaos closer, to feel the intensity of the heat from the fire, the strength of the wind, the cool sprays he’s off water and the rough grazes from the debris and earth.

So you do, you narrow it and narrow it.

Until you are essentially mummifying yourself into your own powers, too focused to hear Bucky and Tony banging on your window to tell you to stop. You breathe.

In.

Out.

In.

Flashes of Bucky flash through your head.

In.

Out.

In.

Flashes of Strange flash through your head, but you feel a pang in your heart when you see him.

You open your eyes.

Abruptly.

Still seeing Strange, still encased in a tornado of your own powers, you let yourself feel. Actually feel and you scream in frustration.

Exploding the tornado surrounding you, sending debris flying everything and water splashing against all surfaces, putting out any fire that had caught onto another and the gusts of air knocking anything over in its path.

You take short breathes, fixed to that spot, arms still out stretched. A smirk creeping on your face.

“Sport?”

“Darling?”

You snap back to reality. Turning to see Pietro looking terrified and Tony looking worried. Glancing over you see Bucky beaming, with pride and… lust.

You take a look around, there was scorch marks up the walls, scratches, dents and cracks in the walls from the debris, the floors and windows were soaked from the water, stood in a mixture of earth and water, you sigh and turn back towards the boys.

Ah shit. Might of let that go too far.