Two to Tango

Chapter Eighteen

I can't believe my eyes, what happened to him?, I wiped my cheeks before walking towards him holding his cheeks gently and stroking it.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I left you but now I'm never going to leave you, I'm going to take you to Brooklyn and you'll live with me, and...."
"Oh no! He's not living with you!" Xander's voice boomed through the walls of the room.
"What do you mean he is not living with me?" I asked turning to meet him, his eyes piercing me almost to death. If only eyes could kill.
"You're not fit to be his mother, I'm taking him from you"
My heart dropped broken into a thousand pieces, I looked into his eyes that looked back at me with so much hatred.
"Xander you can't do that" I said trying to sound strong only for my voice to falter.
"You do not get to decide that!" He snapped
"Xander please, kaden is my whole purpose for living, please" I begged tears blurring my vision threatening to fall.
"I would have believed that if you told me about him earlier" he said moving past me but I blocked him.
"Xander I was scared, I thought you won't be a great father, I thought you'll freak out, I was trying to recover from Vicky's shock" I explained pleading him with my eyes. He laughed a humorless laugh
"I won't be a great father? You dare judge me when you're not any better! You hid your son from his father for 6years and you claimed to love him? You're a selfish bitch! That's what you are!"he yelled at me and even though his words stung me more than any bee, it didn't sting me as much that I knew kaden won't be coming back to me anymore. I can do anything for him to come back to me...
"Please Xander!" I sobbed kneeling in front of him "please forgive me and let him be with me, I beg of you" I begged, my tears dropping on the floor.
"No mia! I can't leave him with you, you're a bad mother, a terrible mother! A mother who leaves his child with another woman to take care of for years, you went to Brooklyn to spend your life alone while you left kaden in the hands of another woman to nurse and you dare open your mouth to call yourself his mother?! Theresa is better than you!" He yelled and my head snapped to look at him, his face void of emotion you can only tell his anger by the clenching and unclenching of his jaw. I don't care what he says, he can insult me all he wants, I'll roll in a pit of mud if I have to, I'll climb the Highest mountain to the top for Kaden. I'll do absolutely anything.
I returned my gaze to his feet, hugging it slightly "you can hit me if you want to and say things to me I don't mind, just let kaden be with me, you can forgive me and we could leave in Brooklyn as a big family, please Xander, I'll give up everything for Kaden to be in my arms every night" I said still sobbing, he removed his leg from my grip, bending down to my height before lifting my chin to look at his face, I've never seen Xander look at me with so much detest and irritation, I want to cower in fear and shame but I can't, I have to strong for Kaden.
"I have two choices"
Finally, we are going somewhere, my heart breathed in relief before I urged him to go on.
"One, kaden goes with me to wherever I want to take him and lives with me without you or anyone knowing we were we are until I decide to call you back to join us"
Okay I'm definitely not taking that one.
"Or...we go to fight for Kaden custody in court and trust me when I say I'll win and when I win, I'm taking him away forever...you will never get to see him again" he said
I... don't know what to do. I don't know what to choose.
The earth paused and all I could see is the brown orbs of a man that I love or I used to love.. how did he become so wicked? So heartless? He's no difference from Vicky.
"Xander...."I started but he cut me off with a gruff voice
"One or two?!"he asked firmly
"One" I replied even without thinking. He let my chin go causing me to stare at the ground, I can't believe this same man used to make love with me, I can't believe he used to call me sweet names everytime and I used to blush at every cheesy pick up lines that he says. This man is nothing more than a monster.

****
It was morning and I was still at the same place as yesterday, on the cold ground, Kaden woke up in the middle of the night, I fed him and we had a quick chat, today is when Xander will take him away from me. Kaden slept back after taking some medications this morning, Xander sitted in a chair close to Kaden's bed while neon stood, leaning against the wall. I've never felt so numb.
"Mia get up" neon whispered tapping me slightly but I couldn't get up I just couldn't, I shrugged him off,while someone entered the room.
"Mr Wales, Xander is ready to go home now, please sign here to confirm his discharge" hearing that, I flew up like a bird about to be shot.
Kaden was about to see his final goodbye to me soon and I was going to do nothing? The doctor Walked out and I strode to where Xander sat.
"Please Xander, don't do this, we could fix this...together" I suggested
"It's already been fixed I gave you my choices and you picked already, now I have to go, he said before walking pas me and carrying kaden on his shoulders. My feet stayed glued to the floor watching my kaden been taken away from me, just as he was about to cross the door, he stopped, has he changed his mind?, he turned his face slightly to look at me before saying
"Goodbye Mia"
And he walked out.