MAKE ME STAY (MAKE ME GO BOOK ll)

Make Me Stay : seventeen

Chaeyoung

"Okay,I'll be there as soon as I can. Yeah, I love you too"

I ended the call and checked my wristwatch.  It's almost nine in the evening but Somi's still not home

I'm at Somi's place where Mina currently stays. She's finally discharged after few days of staying at the hospital. She already knew everything about me and Yeoreum and I did admit everything to her as well.

At first,I thought she'd be mad at me but to my surprise, she didn't. She just cried until she fell asleep. I felt so ashamed and guilty but I can't do anything. I love them both and choosing between one of them will never gonna happen

Mina needs me,Yes but Yeoruem needs me,too. In fact, Yeoreum needs me more than Mina does. I know Mina is again trapped in a darkness caused by me but Yeoreum's condition needs more care and attention. With just one wrong move, Yeoreum's life could be in danger and I don't want that to happen

I don't wanna leave any of them so I ended up taking care of them both

I spend the day taking care of Mina while I'm with Yeoreum at night. It's been this way and Mina wasn't even complaining which I am grateful for, somehow..

I'm keeping everything from Yeoreum until now because I'm too scared that it would just worsen her condition. It's such a good thing that Mina cooperates and understands me even in her current state

I know I'm being too selfish but it's the best thing I think I could do,for now

"Is it her? Is it Yeoreum?"

Guilt surrounded my whole being when I heard Mina's soft voice asking if Yeoreum was the one who just called

I looked back and saw Mina sitting at the edge of the bed holding her stick that guides her. She slowly made her way to me so I went to her and guided her to sit back on the bed

"Mina, I thought you're already sleeping?"

"I can't sleep"

I sighed and scratched my nape. It's nine in the evening and Yeoreum is already waiting for me but I can't just leave Mina like this. Somi surely would be mad if I leave Mina without her

"Mina, you should go to sleep. I'm sure Somi's on her way home—"

"Can't you just stay,baby?"

Wait,what?

"Stop calling me that way,Mina. We both know things aren't the same between us anymore."

I intently looked at Mina and there I found sadness and pain in her face. Oh,please not now. Having another drama with her isn't what I want right now

What I want is to go home and hug Yeoreum. I miss her so bad

"C-can you stay here tonight? Even just for tonight—"

"I'm sorry Mina,you know I can't"

"Please?? Just for this night. I miss you so bad and—"

"God,Mina! I already spent my whole day with you. We already talk about this and You know that Yeoreun needs me! Stop being selfish!"

Out of frustration, guilt,stress and wanting to be with Yeoreum so bad, I raised my voice and yelled at her. We already talk about this before but here she is, insisting things that she wanted

"P-Please? Just for tonight?"

Mina began crying which made me annoyed even more. Why is she being like this? She's so over dramantic amd I'm hating it