MAKE ME STAY (MAKE ME GO BOOK ll)

Make Me Stay : Twenty

Mina

"Chaeyoung??"

I wonder why Chaeyoung suddenly stopped after she hovered on top of me few minutes ago. I listened carefully and tried to imagine what Chaeyoung might be up to until I heard tiny snores

Fuck!

Did she just left me hanging??

"Chaeng??"

She didn't even move a bit which made me upset a little bit

Aish! How can she even turned me on then just leave me hanging? I'm fucking wet and needy!

"Baby,come on—"

"H-hon,please..D-don't leave me..I love you so much, Yeoreum.."

The desire and lust I felt earlier suddenly vanished. Now, it's been replaced by pain and sadness. I didn't know how to react after clearly hearing what she just said

Tears began roling down my eyes but I didn't let any sob escape my mouth. I don't want Chaeyoung to find out what I just heard

I gently move Chaeyoung on top of me and lay on the bed sidewards then cried silently.

What is happening? I thought she want to make things right. I thought she want to work things out between us

I thought she love me. I though she still do..

Tears roll after tears as i felt my heart slowly breaking pieces by pieces. I never thought she could do this to me.I believed and trusted her only to hurt me all over again

You're so unfair,Chaeyoung. You're so damn unfair!

I wanted to scream and shout. I wanted to release all these pain but a part of me doesn't want to So I chose to cried in silent and grieve for my heart that's slowly dying because of the new pain that she gave me

I hate her but I hate myself even more. I hate myself for being too dumb,for believing all her lies and for easily trusting her again

I'm so fucking dumb to believe that she's finally back, that she's really making things right between us. I'm so fucking dumb to believe that she still love me when I think it's all fake

Everything was just a facade!

I'm so stupid!

"Y-Yeoruem..please.."

I bit my lips to refrain myself from crying. I didn't imagine this night will end up like this. I'm so stupid

My body froze when I felt Chaeyoung suddenly hugged me from the back. My mind tells me to move away from the hug but my heart tells otherwise

Should I follow my mind? Or my heart?

I'm having a hard time weighing things over but after a minute,I decided to moved her hand on my waist— I move her hands on my waist and turned around to touch her and caress her sleeping face

I love her so damn much!

I love her so much that I'm willing to take all the pain she'll give to me. I love her so much that I'm willing to accept that she'll never love me the way I love her. I love her so much that I'm willing to fool myself and follow my heart just to be with her

I love her and I will always will, even if this love would break my heart all over again

(After few days.. )

"Take care guys. I'll see you again soon. Take care of Mina for me okay,Son stupid Chaeyoung?"

"Yah! It's Son Chaeyoung!"