Mine (HOOD) [COMPLETED]

15; Beach Pt. 2

Shay's POV

I was in Calum's arms for a moment there. I was on top of him a moment later. I was too close to him, too much physical contact. Why does my blood rushing so fast in my veins when he touches me? Shay! Get over yourself! There has to be a logical explanation for this, maybe it's just that I have not been touched for quite awhile. Yeah, that must be it. The sensation of Calum's fingertips on my thighs is because no guy has touched there for the last 5 years. I have to be logical, I can't let my emotions take this seriously. 

Okay, that's the explanation for the touch. How about his eyes? Why did I stare into his round brown eyes? Not only that, why did I feel safe looking at it? Like it's..home. Maybe it's because Calum has gorgeous eyes and he has that charming effect on girls, and I'm a girl so I fell for it but not too long! I shaked it off and got up and walked over to Tommy. 

Calum always has a way to loosened me up. I know I can be uptight and the only time I feel relaxed and young is when I was with Calum that summer. I would never loosened up for anyone, I would keep that wall up very high and not let anyone break it and know who Shay really is. But somehow, I let my wall down for Calum cause he earned my trust and he was actually interested in me. I thought I was a hella boring person but Calum doesn't see it that way. He made me feel safe and secured, and that's why I was a crazy person back then like having the guts to have a tattoo and the sex drive of a maniac till I get pregnant. So when he took away my book cause he wants to play tag like the good old times, it made me feel good, vibrant and young again. I felt a tinch of happiness I felt when I was 18.

When I just see him laying there on the sand, I just had to ask whether he's okay. "Calum, you okay?"

When he turns his head in my direction, like he just woke up from a spell or something, "I'm fine". 

Did I do that to him? A second,I feel great about myself cause I just made Calum Hood speechless just by not saying anything. But I'm not gonna over-do it and make it so obvious that I'm onto him. I'm not onto him, why should I? I don't even like him? I mean, I do cause he's Tommy's dad and we had history. That's all it just was, a history. If Tommy wasn't in the picture, I would never cross paths with Calum, ever. We are totally differernt, going through different paths and have different ideas about different things. We are just too different. 

The three of us walk around the beach, enjoying the wind but boys being boys, Tommy and Calum run around the beach and imagine that they are eagles. They run and leave me behind, I smile at their joyous moment. To think that I wanted Calum out of Tommy's life, scared of Calum ditching him like he did to me was selfish. I see a whole new side of Calum now, he's so loving and caring and really want to spend the time he has with Tommy. 

"Mummy! Smile!", I hear my son calling me out. As I lift my head from the sand, I see Calum holding out his phone to take a picture of me.

"Don't Calum! I don't look nice right now! My hair is all over the place because of the wind!" I yelled.

He looks at me with disbelief, "what are you talking about, you look stunning! Just smile"

I hold my cap with my hand and smile anyways, then he pull his phone to himself to save the picture.

I got excited and run over to them, "take a picture with me and Tommy!"

I kneel down and hug Tommy towards my chest and Calum takes a step back and kneel down to get the perfect angle. "Okay, say cheese"

"CHEESEEEEE", my son and I said loudly. 

I stand up and offered to take a picture of him and Tommy, "let me take a picture of both of you"

"That's great!", he hands over his phone and he carries Tommy in his arms and stick out a thumb, like he always does in pictures. 

Subsequently, Tommy did the same. 

I snap the picture, "beautiful". I hand the phone back to Calum and he immediately say to my face, "let's take a selfie!"

"You mean the three of us?", and he nods in excitement, "yeah!"

The three of us sit on the sand, and Calum reach his phone out as further as he can and Tommy is in between Calum and I. 

"CHEESEEEEEE"

We took a few more with funny faces, and other crazy poses. Tommy even jumped in the air in one of the pictures. 

The sun was starting to set so we make our way back to the car with Calum following us behind. 

"I have a great day today, Calum!", my son told Calum in a hug.

"Me too, buddy", he responded. 

"Me three", I interrupt. I cann see Calum look up at me with a smile. 

As he put Tommy in his carseat, Tommy put his hands on his mouth like he just remembered something. "Remember our deal", he whispered loudly. 

"What deal?" I asked.

"Oh nothing", Tommy said and Calum start to chuckle and I can see his prominent laugh lines. That's my favourite feature of him. 

When Calum says his goodbye and shut the door, I cross my arms and raised an eyebrow, "what deal, Hood?"

He holds my shoulder, "Nothing, Dallas. When we were on the phone the other night, I was pissed off with Luke and Ashton cause they are being idiots so I said the forbidden words and he threatened me to buy him 3 car models so that he wouldn't tell you", he air quoted forbidden words. 

"Did you just air quote forbidden words?", I motioned my hand in an air quote too.

"Yes, cause come on, Dallas. It's just words".

"It's forbidden for a 5 year old, Hood. That is why it's called forbidden", I explained.

"So when he's 15, it's not forbidden anymore?", he asks me back.

"He won't be saying such things when he's 15", I try to defend that my son will grow up to be a decent man that won't drop the F-bomb everywhere.

Now he has his arms crossed, "really?"

"Yes. But you know, now you're in his life so it's most likely that he would got it from you. When he's being rude, it's on you", I said. 

He widened his eyes in astonishment, "so when he's polite like a peach, it's from you?"

I nod my head and mouthed, "yeah". 

"You're unbeliveable", he raised his hands in surrender.

I laugh at his response, "thanks, I'll take that as a compliment", I walk over to my side of the door. 

"I really had a nice time today, Shay", he puts his hand on the roof of the car.

"Me too, Cal", I smile back.

"For a second there, it felt like we were a....", he looks so scared to finish that sentence.

"Family?", I said.

He looked at me and smile, "yeah". 

"Well, Hood. You are his dad and I am his mom, and we are friends. Things are going good, I shall say". 

He looked a bit disspointed with my remark but I got to put it out there, we are not gonna be nothing more than friends. 

"Yeah", he said with a mellow voice. 

"Bye, Calum"

"Bye, Shay", he said and step away from the car. 

Tommy waves his hand to Calum as I drive away, and as much as I want Tommy to have a real family, I know it in my heart that Calum and I are just not gonna work. 

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