Eyes Behold

45. Love

Jordan could vaguely feel movement around him but he was too sleepy to get up so he instead pushed his head further into his pillow and tightened his grip. It smelt so sweet , sweet as lavender. He snuggled into it more , a small smile slipping on his face unconsciously.

Just as he was about to fall back asleep he felt slow fingers threading into his hair , playing with them softly and he leaned into the touch. Then as of his conscience had suddenly decided to take back it's role , he realised that a pillow couldn't smell like Rose and no one could ever massage his head like her . Her hands worked magic on his head.

He suddenly opened his eyes to find his arms around her waist and his face snuggled into her stomach while she was sitting next to him playing with his hair . Streaks of lights were coming from behind her as she faced him making her black hair glisten a shade of mustard brown and cousing her face to adorn that golden glow.

Jordan's breath hitched. A morning Rose even in her bed hair was beautiful, way too much for him to remain sane. He couldn't draw his eyes from her face . Rose couldn't help but giggle as she saw him staring at her with eyes wide open and his mouth ajar. He looked so cute!

" Morning handsome "

As Jordan registered her words , he growled lowly and in a swift moment had pinned her beneath him . Rose yelped in surprise and giggled closing her eyes. She closed them further as she felt a hand trace her jawline ever so lightly and bit her lip.

" Morning love."

Rose's eyes shot open at that as she gazed into his honey suckle eyes.

Did he just say that?

Rose wasn't sure it was her fantasy or the truth but as she gazed into his eyes, she could see that what she heard wasn't her illusion. He had said that . Her Jordan had just called her love.

Does that mean he loves me ?

Her mind wasn't letting her jump to conclusions and she was thankful for that. Just as she opened her mouth to ask him even though she didn't even know what she was going to say , his phone started ringing.

Jordan broke out of his trance as he cursed loudly moving his hands through his hair. He groaned as Rose hit him on his forearm and sent her an apologetic glance. He was still amused at how Rose would never curse and never let anyone as well.

'What he said was true', he thought .' She was too pure for this vicious world ' Jordan's mind reminded his words to him .

Jordan went to switch the phone off when he saw the caller ID. Rose could detect the sudden change in his demeanor and frowned.

"What happened Jord ?"

"Don't worry little one. " he kissed her forehead lovingly and got up .

He went out recieving the call and closed the door behind him after glancing one last time at a frowning worried Rose . A while later he entered back and  immediately went to the closet of the room. Rose couldn't comprehend what had happened suddenly. She wanted to ask him what he meant when he called her love . Did he love her or it was just one of his many endearment? But that wasn't important for now because now she was concerned. He had never behaved like this.

When she found him getting ready and not glancing at her even once , her insecurities began to grow pretty fast. All the words from Mia started flooding back and her heart began to race. She opened her mouth to call him out but immediately snapped shut. She didn't want to sound like the desperate whiny girlfriends.

She didn't want to interrupt his work . What if he started realising that she wasn't enough for him ?

Rose had never doubted herself, ever. But she had hopelessly fallen for Jordan and now even the thought of losing him and never being with him sent shivers down to the very core. She couldn't do it. Again she realised the power of insecurities and love in a person's life. She had never wanted this to happen but she was feeling completely helpless against her emotions. She tried to reassure herself many times but this fear just wouldn't leave her, the fear of the unknown future.

So she instead decided to busy herself with the project with Louis and Dr Adler which she was doing before Jordan woke up.

The progress of the work had been good so far. They had successfully held at least 18 camps in the past three days . Everyday each of the six teams formed would hold the camp in a part of the town and spread awareness around. The members of the group had advised Rose to get the banners made from poor children who knew some art and give them a part of the fund they would collect through the program. Louis had ensured a lot of donators who were ready to give any kind of monetary help required. Rose was pleasantly surprised by the excellent advice and with the help of Claire and her colleagues , she had been able to locate a few groups of children in the town who were ready to advertise and help.

A group of interns recently employed by many hospitals of the town were acting as the middleman and communicating details of any kind of patient who was in immediate need of rehabilitation. Rose was busy coordinating all of them and making sure the work went on smoothly. Every day's progress , problems and suggestions were reported to her.

Louis couldn't help as he was busy at the hospital and thus had given the reigns of the project to her . After all , it was her dream project and her idea. The feeling of gratitude and happiness that surged through Rose was unlike she had ever experienced.

Rose jerked up when she felt a hand cup her chin. She had got so lost in her work that she never noticed Jordan come out of the closet . She glanced up to see him all ready in a black hoodie and jeans with glares and a mask. He was looking hot . No . Hell hot, she concluded.

Jordan laughed out loud , amused by her.

" You've already told me that sweetheart. But I don't mind being reminded how hell hot I am ." He teased repeating her lines.

Rose immediately blushed but this time she didn't let her mind go speechless and numb. She was progressing, at least a little.

" Where are you going ?"

" I'll be back soon ." he kissed her forehead and then her cheeks . Pulling out reluctantly, he avoided her eyes as he backed off to leave . Rose registered he hadn't answered her question. Her forehead contorted as she kept looking at him.

" You didn't say ."

" What ?" He knew but he still avoided her as he gathered his phone and wallet . Rose kept silent , a bit hurt now but she didn't let it come out on her face . However her eyes gave out everything. She still kept staring at him .

Getting no answer , Jordan decided it would be best that he leaves the room. He didn't want to lie to his little one. He hated it . But of course he couldn't resist. He glanced up and his eyes immediately softened when he saw her little frown and even the small hurt in her eyes. He immediately felt guilty but he couldn't tell her. It was for her.

" Oh little one ! I'm just going out for a recent project here. I have a meeting. "

He didn't leave from his spot next to the door. He knew he wouldn't be able to go out if he did.

" Meeting ?"

He nodded wordlessly.

" In casuals ? Hoodie ?"

Jordan's eyes immediately conflicted a bit but he recomposed quickly.

" I'll tell you when I return . " He spoke up already halfway through the door.

" When will-"

But she was cut by the banging of the door. Rose didn't want to feel vulnerable but she couldn't help it. Never in the few months that they had known each other had he behaved like this. Never. She couldn't help the tears that built up in her eyes.

Outside the door , Jordan leaned back on the door sighing heavily.

" I'm sorry little one . I'm sorry " he whispered lightly hoping with all his heart that she would understand. He hated seeing her like this.

He took one last look at the door as if he could see right through it , shook his head , regained his composure back to his confident one and without another glance back exited the hotel.

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Joban ❤️