All or Nothing (August Alsina FF)

Chapter 20

        I know that I should have said no to going out with Terrance but I wasn't thinking about August or anyone else when I said yes.  I honestly didn't think it was a big deal until Julianna asked me what I would thought if August did something similar.  So I felt bad and I went there to apologize and I figured he would feel some type of way but I didn't expect the situation to turn out like that.  I knew what I did might have not been appropriate but he went left field.  

        Early the next morning after our blow up he sent me a text telling me we needed to talk and that he was sorry but I only responded one time with a simple-KISS MY ASS!! I wasn't ready to talk to him yet and didn't know when I would be because honestly I was shocked I didn't punch his ass in the face after that crap he pulled with the females names in his phone.  He had all these hoes numbers in his phone, how did I know that he wasn't communicating with them still?  

        Two days later I still hadn't responded to his messages, I didn't want some half assed apology.  If he was really sorry than he knew where to find me.  I'm assuming he would show up tonight to our dance battle and we would talk then, but for now he could kick rocks.  

        It was early Friday morning and me and the girls had a early morning practice as usual before tonight.  After two hours of practice none of us had anything better to do so we decided to sit back, talk, and chill. I informed the girls that I went out with Terrance and August didn't take it to well and that didn't surprise any of them.  They were on his side until I informed him and his childish antics after I told him with him reciting random names in his phone.

        "Just talk to him."

        "Fuck that and fuck him, he can kiss my ass."

        "You don't mean that," Julianna spoke up and I rolled my eyes, okay maybe I didn't.  But when I replayed the scene in my head I got pissed all over again.  

        "I do and I texted him that to," I confessed and Danielle was the first to laugh and soon a smiled graced my face as well.

        "I know what you need," Crystal smiled standing up.

        "And what is that," I asked her and my question was answered when she turned on the radio and plugged up her phone and soon Chris Brown's Love More was blasting and I had the sudden urge to dance, as if I wasn't just doing that. 

        I stood up and me and the girls were all putting our little moves in on it and by the time the end of the song rolled around we had put a nice little routine on the chorus.  Five songs later and after Julianna got off the phone with D just as Mila J's Smoke, Drink, Break-Up.

        As the music started to play it was like my body just knew that to do and plus the song fit right into my mood. And one line stuck out in particular:

See, I gotta be outta my head

To deal with ya

And I gotta be outta my head

To be still with ya

 

        This line stuck out because one half the time I think back to when me and August first met, I didn't like him at all.  He was cocky and arrogant and not to mention rude as fuck.  And somehow he weaseled himself into my life with a smile and in some twisted way we became friends.  I got to know him better and I realized he wasn't so bad and he redeemed himself.  

        I prided myself on being cautious and smart so how in the hell could I go for a guy like August who was my polar opposites.  As cliché as it sounds I was a good girl and he was a bad boy and the kind of guy my mom and my common sense told me to steer clear from.  If I had common sense I would take this latest argument break things off with them before I really got hurt.  I didn't see this relationship ending on a positive note.  The way I saw it he would probably get bored with me, and soon would be calling one of the many hoes in his 'thot directory'.  Breaking things off would be the smart thing to do and maybe that's what I would do.