All or Nothing (August Alsina FF)

Chapter 44 (Short)

The weekend breezed by fast and instead of staying cooped up in bed I focused on dancing. The last battle was coming up fast and me and the girls needed to come up with something spectacular. We had finally agreed on a song, Feeling Myself Electric Bodega Remix and now all we needed were moves and since I had nothing else better to do in my spare time that's what I focused on. Dancing was a big help to clear my head, get rid of some of my built up aggression and relieve some stress. But it was hard to dance when I kept feeling sick.

I thought it was because I haven't been eating like I should have but when I did I threw everything right back up. I didn't want to believe that I could be pregnant but in all honesty I wasn't sure. I didn't want to believe it but with the random spotting and the nausea, even my cycle was off balance. I don't know what the hell I would do if I was pregnant. The last thing I wanted to do was have a baby. I just started college a month ago and I was only 18 and my baby's father was a cheating, drug dealing asshole who I wished would drop dead.

Monday during my second class of the day, one minutes I was listening to my professor's lesson for the day and the next I felt sick to my stomach. Rushing out of class and running to the nearest bathroom and hardly made it time. After that I knew I needed to find out A.S.A.P. what was going on and after school I planned on going to the pharmacy and picking up a pregnancy test. Walking back in class I apologized to the teacher and thankfully throughout the rest of the day I didn't have any more incidents. Before I rushed off to practice with the girls I stopped by the nearest CVS and browsed the aisles until I found what I was looking for. It took me 10 minutes to make a decision on which test to buy but I found my choice and bought two just in case. After I left there I went to practice to meet the girls. I couldn't focus on anything else because my mind was on what I had to do once I left practice. I wish I could tell them but I know I needed to do this alone.

As soon as I got home I locked myself in my bathroom and opened up the first box. Two water bottles and almost fifteen minutes later I was looking over both tests. Both negative. I don't think I've ever been more relieved in my life.

That still didn't explain why I've been feeling so sick lately. I made a doctor's appointment for Thursday afternoon and decided to try to get through the rest of the week. Next day I got to school and everything was normal for the most part but I noticed several people looking at me and chit chatting. I assumed they were talking about me and August and our public argument/breakup. Everyone by now knew that me and August were done and it was mixed reactions from everyone. I had randoms coming up to me trying to get in my business and I wasn't the nicest with the way I talked to them. I knew it didn't matter what I told them they would find a way to screw with the truth.

When I got home Tuesday I looked down at my bracelet and searched online for the proper tool to take it off with and I found one. 6 dollars on amazon.com. I ordered it, requesting next day shipping and by the time I got home from school the next day it had arrived. First thing I did when I got home that day was take it off. I had mixed emotions about it, a large part of me was happy it was off and the other part of didn't know how to feel. I put it away in my jewelry box so I didn't have to look at it and went on about my way.

Thursday at school as soon as I met up with the girls Crystal informed us on the latest gossip and it didn't surprise me that once again I was the hot topic of the week.

"You and August broke up because your pregnant and he didn't want a baby right now. When he asked you to get an abortion you said no and broke up with him," Crystal spoke up, "And that one is mild compared to the big one everyone is spreading."

"What do you mean big one, if what you said isn't bad enough?"

"Most people are saying August was going to break up with you. That he was cheating on you. You didn't want to lose him so you trapped him by getting pregnant. When you told him you were pregnant he broke up with you. Told you he didn't want to have anything to do with you and this and that." After hearing that I paused and looked at her and frowned.

These motherfuckers had to much time on there hands. Last thing I needed was someone running back to my mom, with a rumor that I was pregnant, and all church folks did was gossip when they weren't praising and singing and shit.

"Its what there saying not me," she held up hands up and took a step back, "Couple of kids said they saw you run out of class, some girl said she saw you in the bathroom throwing up. Morning sickness."

I shook my head and walked away from them not saying another word. I've had it up to here with everyone and wished my life would go back to normal, before I met him. Where no one talked to me or cared to know me. I couldn't wait till this afternoon so I could find out what was going on with me and put this baby talk to rest once and for all.

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