i'll try to fix you | m.c.

eighteen: addiction

triggering don't read if it is pls ily all

| sam's pov |

I walked around the corner to the park where we got high. My face was soaked with tears. I called Jason because I didn't have anyone else. Sara was right, I pushed everyone that cared about me away. I had to, it was just easier that way.

It ringed before he picked up.

J: Hello?
S: Where are you?
J: Out for a walk, why?
S: Meet me at the park, I'm craving.
J: Already? That was quick
S: I don't care lets go. I don't have fucking all day
J: Alright I'm coming.

I sat on the swing and looked at my feet. I was such a fuck up. Why did I do this? Why did I have to be such a fuck up? Why did I have to call him?

You didn't have to Sam your just pathetic.

My mind was right. I didn't have to, but it would help me. It would calm me down and let me forget, for at least a couple hours, I desperately needed that. I saw him walking and I got up. I walked with him to our secret place, by the beach. He handed me the bag and I looked at it cautiously, deciding whether or not I should do it. I grabbed the bag and gulped.

"D-did you bring the needles..or..?"

"Of course babe." He handed me everything and I smiled

I took Ketamine first, and put it in the syringe, and searched for a vein. I finally found one and injected in my vein, immediately feeling the effect. It was amazing, and I knew I had missed it.

"What else you got?" I looked at him

"LSD, and Devils breath."

"I'll take some LSD in a little."

"You don't want Devils breath? I heard it's amazing!"

"No, what is it?"

"More relaxation from this fucked up world." he looked at the ocean

"Yeah no thanks, not tonight."

Jason had LSD in a pill, but we had nothing to drink, so unfortunately I was stuck with Ketamine, and that wasn't enough.

A couple of hours passed, and my high was wearing off. I was pissed, it made me forget about everything and everyone for a while. I looked at Jason, who was also wearing off of his high.

"Can we go to the gas station and go get drinks or something? I need more."

"Yeah but Sam no more after this seriously. I don't want you getting hurt."

"Then you shouldn't have asked me to smoke in the first place." I stated walking away from the beach, he followed.

"I know, fuck I'm sorry. But you gotta take it easy on Mike alright? He's seriously trying to help you and your not letting him. He likes you."

"No he doesn't."

"He does."

"How do you know?"

"The way he looks at you, gives it all away man."

"Oh."

The rest of the walk was silent. We found a gas station and bought two waters. We took the pill and I was finally getting relaxed again.

"I'll walk you home." Jason mumbled

Once we began walking I saw Jason throw his pill in the bushes, I don't think he knows that I saw but I did. And I must admit I was kind of surprised on why he did that. I thought he'd try to get high again? Injection was bad enough though. But that made me feel more like a fuck up. I sighed, as we made it to my front door.

"Your gonna be alright getting home?" I slurred

"Yeah I'm not high."

"Oookay!"

"Yeah."

"What time is it?"

"3:56 AM"

"Oh damn my mommas gonna kill me!!"

"Sneak in."

"Okay, where?"

He dragged me to the back of my house, where my room was. He helped me climb into the window and on my bed, and get pajamas on, etc. He tucked me in before, moving a piece of hair out of my face he kissed my head.

"Bye Sam it was good seeing you again, stay safe. And give Mikey a chance, he's fixing you."

And he left.

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sorry this was bad but i want you guys to see that sam was awful when mike left it was just smoking pot it was much worst :-(