"Lulu Addison Hollister" I hear through my door as I'm laying in I bed, finalizing music for my album release next week.
Mads walks in. "Babe, I'm so sorry. You're gonna get through this. Bails shouldn't have done that, but Rudy will have a regretful ass after this song for sure"
"Thanks mads, you're the best" I say "and we're gonna have to film season 2 soon. Jj and Chloe are very much in love" I state with a nervous chuckle
Mads gives me a soft smile, and leaves me with my thoughts. I love Rudy, did he not really love me? I decide that my album is complete, and there's no use for me to try and edit the songs more, I love them. My single comes out tomorrow. It's about Rudy and I sure as hell hope he knows.
The next day
Lulunotlemon: here she is!! Stay numb and carry on! One of my favorite tracks from my new album, being released next Friday! Stay tuned🤍
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My post was blowing up. My modeling friends have reached out to say congrats, and some other famous artists want to collaborate already to get my music out! The OBX cast decided to through a party. 1/2 to celebrate my new song, and the other half to celebrate starting season 2 filming tomorrow. I'm nervous to see Rudy...and bails...together. But, I'm not gonna let it ruin my night.
I decide to throw on sweats over my spandex and sports bra, and walk over to the boys apartment. Bails went over early with Rudy, and mads with chase. They make me feel so single. JD opens the door for me and I instantly see Rudy. He has his arms wrapped around bails and looks happy. I smile slightly. I want what's best for ru.
About halfway through the party, the music switches to Stay Numb and Carry on. Everyone whoops and chants for me to sing for them. Giving into peer pressure, I start-
Stay numb and carry on
Too young to hate someone
Truth is, it was never love
Your fault if you thought it was
Stay numb and carry on
Too young to hate someone
Truth is, it was never love
Your fault if you thought it wasTongue taste like liquid poison
Medicine for my inner voices
Can't drown these static noises, I tried (I tried)
Panic mode, it's Helter Skelter
Red alert, cherry Alka-Seltzer
Shake it up and find some shelter to hide (to hide)I've become emotionless
My heart can't help but wonder where the feeling isSo I just stay numb and carry on
Too young to hate someone
Truth is, it was never love
Your fault if you thought it was
Stay numb and carry on
Too young to hate someone
Truth is, it was never love
Your fault if you thought it wasI was gin and you were toxic
We have nothing good in common
Wish we just stayed platonic, we tried (we tried)
But my mind gets dark and ominous
Can't change it, that's just how it is
At least I'm being honest, no lie (no lie)I don't feel like anyone
The world is mad and they say I'm the crazy oneSo I just stay numb and carry on
Too young to hate someone
Truth is, it was never love
Your fault if you thought it was
Stay numb and carry on
Too young to hate someone
Truth is, it was never love
Your fault if you thought it wasI've become emotionless (I've become emotionless)
I've become emotionless
I've become emotionlessSo I just stay numb and carry on
Too young to hate someone
Truth is, it was never love
Your fault if you thought it wasAs I'm singing, everyone is laughing and singing and cheering and dancing Not Rudy. He looks shocked. Frozen. Staring at me in awe. I'm not sure what to do, and I go home to sleep. What just happened?
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reckless ~ Rudy Pankow
Hayran KurguDISCONTINUED Lulu Hollister, uprising model and singer, lands a job acting in Charleston, SC. Well, that is until he coworker and onscreen lover, turns out to be one of her biggest regrets as a teen. *I only own my characters and their storyline* ...