Curse/Boon

Chapter-43

"Get done what?"

"The process of you reading your memories from my mind. What were you thinking?" She smirks so much I wonder if her lips were used only for that.

"Well it's made for more tho"
She looks down at my area

"Like sucking popsicle, kissing my loved ones eating icecream and many more also just like you have asked me to suck your d"

"Let's complete the process". I climbed on top of the bed to escape the cringing disorder my brain has developed against her. It doesn't even work anymore not as a defence one atleast. It works to let me know how close she is standing next to me. With improperly buttoned up shirt. My shirt looked better on her than this.

"Aha? Then wanna exchange?"

"Stop reading my mind you pervert!"

"Says the one who wants me to be half naked in his shirt!" She got to the other side.

"Okay let's just get it done then. A little more and you will know all about your past. But don't force yourself to feel the emotions. They're not yours now."

It's a good thing they're not mine, I don't think I'd handle so much hate and abuse if they were mine. There she is reading my mind as she takes a shaky breath patting my head.

"It's over now, don't think about them. I'm just showing so you will know who's the enemy and who's the friend of yours."

Then we started the process of me looking into her mind. A place which she never allowed anyone in as per my sister.

We were just sitting as grabs my hand like before, holding them tight so my dumbss will not leave it middle of the process.

"No matter what happens don't leave my hands or open your eyes."

"Though everyone is going to think you are unconscious I know that you are not, you just can't move or open your eyes and that beautiful lips of yours" she caressed my lips I can feel it.

"I took a nine hours sleep do you know what that means, I don't have to sleep for next ten weeks and everything is thanks to you." I wonder how my past self would have reacted to make her feel like this.

"Though you are awake partially you won't be able to have a control on how your body acts. I know I need to get your permission first to do this but then I also know you will never say no to me." I can feel the world a little silent than before. Or maybe it was just me loosing my conscious.

"This process is going to be for five or more hours, I will have to concentrate in a way such that his mind and mine are equal. I may loose myself in the process of becoming him. But as soon as the process ends everything will get back to the normal." The way she speaks I can say there are more people not just me.

"All my powers are enough to complete the process but then I don't know if I will need more on not, so if you feel my hair is turning white you will have to form a transformation path between us and pass the energy from you to me" i have no idea what was happening why she was going to take such a deadly step I just hope it wasn't because of me atleast.

"Let's start it then" suddenly my subconscious mind took over me I guess which is why I couldn't understand anymore. Everything was blurry and I couldn't see anymore of my past except for feel how close we both are together.

"I'm sorry for choosing this option without asking your permission." We were both sitting infront of a black and white wolves that were grooming eachother.
"What did you do sweety?"
That was what I used to call her? Sweety was this why she reacted in such a way before when I've called her so.
"I'm taking a part of your memories, the most sad ones."

"So you are doing it again? Taking my pain and facing it yourself. You have already been sharing my pain all those times I was abused. I knew you were, you can't take this away from me."

"I can't help it baby there is no time the enemies are coming at us I should go. Can you please do this for us?"

" I don't know sweety. What's the price?"

" Your happiest and loved memories."

"So you are sacrificing my memories of you?" My past self didn't hesitate to say that. Not even a bit. How could he think that she was the only happiness or love he had ever had. What about marry, mizu, daisy my parents everyone. Why was my past self so thoughtless?

"I can't help it I have to go. Now!" Everything blacked out the link must have broken that was the last thing I saw as I was dragged down into the darkness.

I remember what happened here, I remember being called. Being called by someone for help. Was it aadya. I don't know.

The connection broke as she ended the process. As I opened my eyes I've seen her showing an unsure smile. I really don't know if I should call her selfless or stupid. She could be an alpha but that doesn't mean she has to bear it all. And like my past self has said if he had already shared my pain she must have done a lot.

"You shouldn't have done that."

"Done what?"

"Taking my pain away! Just because you are an alpha or something strong enough to bare it doesn't mean you have the right to do whatever you want."

"Do you know many others have had it harder than you? You are pretty lucky you were blessed to share your pain. And it wasn't because I'm an alpha or strong!"

"Then what? So you can have the pity of everyone and wait is this even real or are you just faking everything?"

"I did it because you were my mate. I'd do it again if I get to. I'll do it always your pain is mine. I'll do it even if you reject me. I'll do it even if you are with someone else. I'll do it even if even if this pain kills me someday. I'll do anything if I can make sure you can smile and be happy."

"Just shut up. You don't know how to do things and you say all these stuff to cover it up."

"I really don't."

"What do you mean?"

"I really don't know how to say anything! I don't know what to say even now, you are dating your mate and I'm still here hoping maybe there will be a miracle or something that will perhaps make you see it. Make you see the love between us or atleast the love I have for you. Make you see what we hold. Maybe something that can prove that I am actually in love with you. So that so that, so that you would atleast stop accusing me of stupid things and calling me a pervert."

I don't know what to say. That was a lot to take in a minute. I can sense Alexa outside. She was just standing there and listening to everything silently. Though I'm telling myself she is here because she cares for me, I can say that she's here for her friend. She's here so that she can stop her friend from doing anything she'll regret later on.

I am silent she was silent, the whole dungeon was so silent I can hear our heartbeats. Things will escalate if I talk to her. So I just chose to sit in a corner of the cell. And I was thinking how I used the word pervert as if it's some normal word. Especially against someone who loves and protected me every chance she got.

I just questioned myself why I hate her so much. I don't have a reason and that surprised me. How could I be so cruel towards someone? As I looked at her side. She was sitting on the bed head and hands on her knees. Small sniffs are coming from her. This is the second time I'm hearing her cry and that is actually hurting me. I can see a red moon staring back at me from the cells window, I can guess how angry the moon godess was at me.

"Why is it so hard for you to know my love? Anyway I'm not here for this. " She got down wiping her tears. How can someone look so beautiful even when they're crying.
I've blocked my mind. I've finally done it. I've forced myself to do it.

I don't want her to know I feel.