Curse/Boon

chapter-20

It has been fifteen weeks I have taken a proper sleep. Which means I've missed my three sessions of sleeping hours, one more week and nobody knows if I would even stay alive after that.

The hardest part is I am unable to relax, my wolf hasn't seen it's mate since ten weeks. Ironic but I can't help it, it's him who betrayed us and their is no looking back at him. Everyone was trying to make me understand that if I don't mate with him in a week or less there are many chances for the death of us both.

How I wish to forgive someone is as easy as forgetting them. There is only one person I can go to in this situation, the one no matter what helps me to relax and lay at ease. She's the only one no matter how I treat her will always fly to me when I need her. My mother.

I brought mizu with me to the palace and went to meet my mother, after the loss of my father it's only her who is trying to get close to me. Everyone else are just little scared kittens who doesn't even dare to look into my eyes. I took mizu to Alexa and left to meet my mother. There she is weeping on her bed. I was about to leave the room but she asked me to get in.

"You do know that if you don't mate you will die, Don't you." She asked me sadness lazed to her voice.
"Your dad, he never promised me forever. He'd always say that if their is a forever I will be with you but if their isn't please take care of my people for me. He always believed you are the only person who can fill the place of an Alpha after him. Not because he thinks you are his brother. He just, he always believed that you can take all of your brothers in one single go but you will never do that. He believes that your love has no boundaries." I was crying too at this point. It's hard for me I've been masking my emotions for ten weeks and I couldn't hold it back anymore.

"Come here Aadya, you don't have to hide your emotions near someone who can read you like an open book." She is looking at me with sad smile and open arms it just took one step into those arms for me to collapse into a pathetic crybaby.

"Why? Just why does everything have to get worse just when I thought I got a hold of it" I yelled into her embrace. Everything was perfect until I left only to come back to the death of my father and the reason was his betrayal, only if I had my walls high, only if I hadn't given into these shitty emotions I wouldn't have brought him into the palace. Only if he wasn't my mate my father would have been alive. These were my thoughts while I slowly drowned into my slumber

Its been five weeks that I had seen him. His smile is the thing I think about lately, I was walking out of the meeting to which I didn't bring Ryan as anyone besides the royalties aren't allowed. It's then I have received the call from Jenny, all she said was "Ryan betrayed dad we need your help fly here, dad might not be able to take it anymore."
The words dad might not be able to kept ringing in my ears. He's the mighty Xavier who took down five kings in a single battle, why isn't he able to.

With that I flew back to the palace without informing Alexa or anyone only to be met with mizu crying over a dead body, a body that belongs to the man I've always looked upto . My father, my ears were ringing . Everything is in chaos, my mother she's no where to be found I flew to find her, while she was talking to Ryan. A mate I've believe with my life, a mate who betrayed me to death.

"What did you get from this?" An emotion less voice asked

" It was a mistake. A mistake I wasn't willing to do but I had to" he answered standing on his knees crying. As if those tears can get blood shedded by my father back to him.
" I'm sorry, give me a chance I can explain" he said but she's still silent.

"Take him" I commanded and that's the look I didn't knew could make me weak. Only if I hadn't looked straight into his eyes. The eyes of a betrayer those pretty eyes I've always loved.

"I'll always be yours" he spoke through those lying eyes

I gasped for air as I opened my eyes, it is the same thing which is keeping me awake from weeks. There stood a person in the shadows with the most familiar scent. Clutching into his sides for his dear life.
"Leave! Leave if you wanna stay alive." I spoke in my best alpha tone I can pull right now.

"He's here to help you sleep, let him" my mother spoke from the other side. Was I really blinded by his scent that I wasn't able to recognise her presence.

"He's the reason I can't sleep mother, please ask him to leave" I didn't want to be disrespectful towards the Luna, I didn't want to hurt my mother.
"Please" were the only words that left her mouth to mute me.

"He'll be gone even before you wake up, you are needed by the kingdom right now don't do this to your self"
You are needed, take care of my people different words are ringing in my head and it was driving me crazy. The only scent that can calm me is approaching me cautiously, I've shifted in the bed to make a room for him.

Mark him, yelled my wolf. The fire I've been trying to ignore from the past few weeks is returning to its peak level. Two hands cupped my face and made me look at him, only to be broken by the image infront of me. What happened to the most beautiful person, he withered. The fragile soul I wanted to protect is broken. Unable to take the picture infront I turned to the other side. An arm was snaked around my waist which made me smile. While everyone is scared to death to meet my eyes here he is begging me to let him help me sleep at ease.

"I'll come back tomorrow" my mother called while exiting her room.
A million questions made their way into my head the answer is lying beside me but I don't dare to speak. I might kill him if I do.

" I know you all think I've betrayed you but, I've begged to keep me out of the palace" he started. The cloth at my back is getting wet letting me know he's crying.
"Please listen to me for once, I can never lie to you. You know that, ask my wolf if he would ever let me hurt you. Ask yourself if I can ever keep mizu in danger " he started to hiccup while crying.

What he just said are things I've been thinking for fifteen weeks. If I could get answers would I accept them or would I look for what I want to instead. Why do I feel like it's not his answer that I want but their is something more that I need to know.
I stood up to bring some water and gave it to him
"Drink" I shoved the water bottle onto his face if I don't listen to him I might never know what actually happened, besides what I need to know their is something I want to know.
After what felt like hours he's finally looked like he could speak.

"Spill"