“Daddy will be back soon,” I coo, gently bouncing Josh on my knee.
“But where did he go?” He whines.
“One Direction stuff,” I sigh.
“B-but... Why does daddy keep leaving?”
“Listen sweetie,” I mumble, looking him in the eyes, “Your daddy loves you very much. He wants to be here with you. But if he doesn’t go with One Direction, then uncle Niall, uncle Zayn, uncle Liam and uncle Harry-”
“Uncle Harry!” He shouts out, grinning.
“Yes, all of them. Without your daddy, they wouldn’t be able to earn money. Trust me, daddy has to leave. But he always comes back. He loves you.”
“He loves you very much, too,” Josh buries his head in my shoulder, smiling.
“Not as much as he loves you,” I grin, beginning to tickle him, “And not as much as I love you.”
“I love you too, Jessie,” he informs me, making my smile widen.
~*~
“Daddy!” Josh yells, getting down from his seat at the kitchen counter and rushing to his dad.
So let me recap these past four weeks. The tour ended, Louis bought an apartment and moved in with Josh, I stayed at home, reunited with my sister, for the first week before Louis asked me to move in with him, he’s been going to interviews and recording songs while I’ve stayed home with Josh, and yeah.
Josh and me said our first ‘I love you’s and I almost started crying. Because, obviously since I was around him so much, it was quick for me to love him like he’s my own son, but I thought he hated me. I just assumed that he would think I was trying to replace his mom and he’d be mad at me, but he wasn’t. I read Wattpad too much.
My life is basically a fan fiction.
It should be.
I’m going to write that, and call it... Huh, I don’t know.
But it would technically be a fan NON fiction. Since it actually happened.
Anyway, I’m getting off topic again.
Where was I?
~FLASHBACK~
“Boo!” I whisper, finding Josh hiding under his bed.
We were playing hide and seek, Louis included, and I just found him.
“Now we have to find daddy,” I mutter, helping the little rascal I love so very much out from under the bed.
“Where is he?” Josh furrows his eyebrows, lifting up a pillow.
“Well, sweetie, we have to find him,” I hold out my hand to him and he grabs it, walking along beside me.
“Jessie?” Josh whispers, looking up at me.
“Yeah?”
“Do you love me?” He asks.
“Of course I do,” I grin, picking him up, “I love you very very much.”
“I love you very very much, too,” he responds, making my heart melt.
“I’m pretty sure I love you more,” I say truthfully.
“No! I love you most!”
~END OF FLASHBACK~
“Hey,” Louis greets me, Josh resting on his hip as he carries him.
“Hey,” I reply, pecking him on the lips.
“We’re going on tour again,” Louis speaks up after turning on the TV for Josh, “The ‘On The Road Again’ 2015 stadium tour.”
His words are laced with excitement and worry.
“Wicked,” I nod, excitement in my own voice, “That’s awesome.”
I try to hide my disappointment. One Direction is at their peak, I’m not going to interfere with that... But he kind of does have a four year old son now.
He frowns, his hands resting on my hips.
“Baby,” he mumbles, resting his forehead against mine.
“No, no, seriously, it is amazing. Another stadium tour and all. But I just... You have to at least take into consideration the fact that you have a son who’s mom,” I lower my voice slightly, glancing over at the four-year-old who’s in his own world, “Passed away...”
“I know, I did. And the tour is only two months,” he shrugs, “We’ll be back before he notices we even left!” Louis tries to convince me.
“Louis, two months is a long time! And what do you mean we?”
“You and me,” he shrugs.
“Or,” I decline, “You could go and I could stay with Josh. Who else is going to take care of him? And do you remember what he said about going on tour with you? He doesn’t like all the flashy lights and people crowding us. He doesn’t like the screams and crying girls. He doesn’t like the travelling, he just wants his dad to live a normal life with him. I get it, okay? You’re young. You want to tour with your band and you’re not ready to be a full time dad. But you have a son now. Deal with it.”
He runs a hand through his hair, sighing, “I have to be ready. And I am. But I can’t quit now, I have to take one for the team. He can stay with his grandma,” he concludes.
“His grandma?”
“Yeah.”
“You mean Jay?”
“Well obviously.”
“Did you even tell them?” I point out.
“Well, I wasn’t the one to tell her but it was all over the news that I have a son, my mom already called me twice and I confirmed it... So they know, I just wasn’t the one to tell them.”
“You should have been,” I state, sighing loudly, “But fine. He can go stay with your sisters, Jay and your step dad while we go on a two month tour. Two months. No longer than that.”
“Deal,” he grins, kissing me on the cheek before rushing over to play with his son. So we’re going on tour again, I guess...
YOU ARE READING
Half A Heart
Fanfiction"So you're saying I'm being kidnapped by two members of a boyband?" I raise my eyebrows at the two creeps. "Exactly." "I feel so special now," I say sarcastically, rolling my eyes. “We’re not kidnapping you, we’re just... Borrowing you,” Harry s...
