UNDISCLOSED DESIRES// BUCKY BARNES x OC

late nights and longing

After a sleepless night thinking about the anticipation of spending time with Barnes, I was on my way to him. I already picked up the newspaper and plums for the old man.
Today I wore a long white shirt, a lacy black set of underwear and some black leggings, fully intending to tease Barnes even more with the fact that you could see my bra through the thin layer of fabric.

Turning into the narrow street, my phone rang.

'Brubaker ?' I said holding my phone up to my ear.

'Ah, darling. Finally I can hear your voice again.' I heard Brock Rumlow at the other end of the line. Bile rose in my throat. Ew.

'What do you want, Rumlow? I'm not here to chat.'

'Have you found Barnes yet?' he asked.

'Nope. I'll let you know when I have, now fuck off, Rumlow. I have to work.'

'Call me if you have him, see you soon, Viper.' with that he hung up and just as I put my phone in the waistband of my panties, Barnes opened the door.

"Hydra giving you trouble already, doll ?" he greeted me at the door.
He wore a navy blue shirt, his metal arm glinting in the early morning sun. His jaw covered in stubble, steely blues checking me out. His hair was tied up in a little bun at the base of his neck, some loose strands of hair framing his chiseled face.
I had to admit that this man was truly a work of art.
Somehow I felt a pull towards him like a magnet. Everything in my mind screamed to not be attracted to him and I was gonna try my hardest to fight it.

After what felt like minutes, I entered his living room and set the little bag of plums and the newspaper on the table next to a heavenly smelling pot of freshly brewed coffee.

"You want some coffee, doll ?" Barnes asked me. I nodded and watched him open the cupboard above the sink to pull out a white mug and a little mason jar of sugar.
"Help yourself. I'm gonna set up and make room here, in case you're gonna fight me again." he said gesturing to the area where his couch was.
"If you act like a dumbass, I can't guarantee that I won't." I said while sipping on my coffee slowly.

He chuckled and nonchalantly lifted the couch with his metal arm. I just rolled my eyes at him.
"Such a poser."
"Are you gonna comment my every move or are you gonna come here so we can start ?" Barnes said holding a  little black notebook in his hand.
"From what I gathered, Schmidt used some kind of mind control on you, which can be reversed but it might trigger aggressions and well emotions. Are you sure you want this, doll ?" he said with a slight concern in his eyes.

"I don't want to kill people anymore, Barnes. Do you think that I enjoy this life ?" I looked into his steel blue eyes as I said it.

"Okay doll, I'm gonna start. Are you ready ?" he flipped through the pages of the notebook.

"Just fucking start already, Barnes." I was anxious and impatient and he saw that.

He started saying words in German but all I could hear was Johan Schmidt.
Suddenly my brain felt like it was being stabbed with rusted blades, a burning feeling behind my eyes like it was being lit on fire. My body absolutely numb from the pain.

The pain became unbearable.

I felt myself let out a scream and then my whole world went black.

In a rapid fire flash my whole life flashed before me, my childhood in Houston, me befriending Jolene, my graduation from high school, my mommy's passing, nursing school and working at the St. Albertine's. People that I met, even if it was briefly. Jolene, Susan Carroway, Chester Phillips, Abraham Erskine and Steven Rogers.

My eyes fluttered open and the first thing I saw was Barnes, panic on his handsome face. I was laying somewhere. He was sweating, strands of his dark brown hair was plastered to his forehead. He was saying something but my ears felt like I was underneath water. All I could hear was muffled sounds.

I felt my hand raise up to touch his face.
My thumb grazed his soft cheek, traveled down his jawline to his full bottom lip.

He stopped talking.

He just looked at me.
His panicked eyes becoming soft, like the storm that had been brewing before calmed down.

"Hey, welcome back, doll.'' he said before leaning down and pressing a soft kiss to my forehead.