Love Is Pain (HxH Au) (Killugon)

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Killua felt tears sting the corners of his eyes. He doesn't hate them? He doesn't think their ugly? Or scary? Or horrible? He finally turned his head to meet Gon's eyes, and he knew. He's telling the truth. I can see it in his eyes, he really believes that. Killua was always told by his mother that his scars were ugly and should be covered at all times. But he called them pretty. And he said I was pretty too. For some reason Gon calling him beautiful had more impact than when the girls at school said it, it made him feel all warm again. He likes the parts of me that even I don't like myself. So he buried his face into Gon's shoulder, slightly trembling fingertips resting on his shoulders. "y-your so...nice. How are y-you so nice... w-why are you so..." he trailed off and Gon ran his fingers through his hair. "it just comes naturally" he said softly. But how? How can you be so nice when the world is so awful? Then he remembered something. Oh! I was supposed to design some skateboards! He pulled back, wiping his eyes. Thankfully he had the expensive makeup so a little bit of tears wouldn't ruin it. After he finished applying concealer onto his hand, he grabbed Gon's.

"skateboard designs" he mumbled, dragging Gon in the direction of his room. Gon blinked at him curiously "huh?" he grabbed a pencil and some paper, then settled down at a desk. "customs guy wanted me to make designs remember?" he glanced up at the time. It's 6:30? I've never woken up so early before. He usually woke up between seven and seven thirty, maybe it was because they went to bed early. "you don't have to-" Killua started sketching the outlines, and Gon leaned over his shoulder to watch. His creativity just started going and he grabbed some colored pencils and stuff. It just kept flowing, coming out in oranges and greens, along with a few yellows as well. He made about four designs in about 15 minutes.

He had to make sure to get all the angles and lines the way he wanted, when he was done he brushed off the paper and glanced up at Gon. Gon's eyes were gleaming and he brought the paper up to his face. "that was so... it's hard to explain" he smiled though. "it's awesome, how do you get so much done in that amount of time?" he blinked. "I only got four, I'm not done yet" Gon's eyes widened, "really? Can I watch?" Killua nodded, "sure" he grabbed another paper, and then a set of colored pencils. He selected a color scheme of greens, oranges, a little blue, and some browns and reds. He could feel Gon watching again as he got to work. I like drawing. He realized. Killua hadn't noticed this before, but he found drawing relaxing and enjoyable.