So This Is Love?

Part 20: Jar Of Broken Hearts

She spent all night in that chair and well into the early morning.

Her body ached.

The small growing being pressing down on her bladder and displaced organs kept her from getting a deep enough sleep to relax.

Stiffly pulling herself from the chair, she rubs her eyes of the Sandman's dust as she makes her way to the bathroom in the corner of the room.

"You're...still...here?" Jumping out of her skin- startled by his low raspy voice, Freema turns quickly to find Ryan's eyes slowly blinking at her.

"Jes...." She nearly swears as she looks down and finds she's no longer in need of the restroom. "Shit..."

Looking down at the puddle on the floor, she looks back at Ryan, embarrassed beyond relief.

"Sorry..." His voices pulls her eyes back up to him and she sees how pale and tired he seems.

She nearly expected him to burst out laughing for literally scaring the piss out of her.

But she only finds him weak and depressed.

"I...it's alright. I should've went earlier...Mum bladder..." she looks back at the mess and then looks around for some sort of solution to her pissy pants problem. "Just um...just give me a moment to get this cleaned up."

With no reply and no reason to wait around for one, Freema heads into the restroom and finds paper towels- the barely absorb any kind that feels like it's made out of cardboard. Grabbing the whole roll basically- she bends down and begins to wipe up the mess the best she can. The awkward silence stabbing into both of them mercilessly.

Tossing the paper away and looking under the cupboards for sanitizing spray, she sprays the spot clean and then looks at her soaked pants.

"Huh...Fucking embarrassing..." Looking up at him slightly, she expects his Letterkenny impersonation per usual- but it doesn't come.

I really broke him.

Going over, she hits his call button and a nurse quickly comes in. Before even opening her mouth to explain, the kind female nurse- who ironically is also pregnant- leaves the room with a smile and comes back shortly with a pair of scrub pants.

"Thank you... sorry about this."

"No problem. Happened to me the other day when I picked up a book off the floor for a patient." Turning to look at Ryan, the nurse checks in. "How are you oh feeling, Mr. Eggold?"

"I'm here..."

"Need anything? Hungry at all? Need something to drink?" Shaking his head no, he watches her leave the room, before closing his eyes and turning his face upward.

"I'm...gonna go change." Walking into the bathroom, she leaves him there on the bed and removes her soaked pants and underpants.staring at herself in the mirror as she wipes herself clean, she notices the tears bubbling up in her eyes. "Stop...stop...stop...please stop..."

Quietly encouraging herself, Freema slowly begins the let more and more tears go.

"You broke his heart... it nearly killed him..." She quietly says- which doesn't make her feel better. Wiping her eyes, she shakes off her fears and guilt and tugs on the pants before heading out to Ryan. Coming out, she finds him laying there still staring at the ceiling- tears brimming in his eyes.

"Can I...can I get you anything?" She asks as she sniffs back her tears.

She did break my heart...but I've been breaking hers since we met.