The Things We Cannot Say

.15.

My head snaps up. I was engulfed in darkness. For a second, I thought I was dead. I thought my soul was still wandering in the sky, in the void of darkness.

But after some time, my eyes adjust to the darkness and I find myself in the middle of the sugarcane field. Maybe it was because of the moonlight, but shadows started creeping up to me, distorted and ugly, as if wanting to eat me whole.

I quickly get up and feel my way through the sugarcane field. The sugarcanes block my way and I often find myself bumping into them. Finally, out of luck, like the lucky child I was called, I stumbled out of the maze of sugarcanes.

Out of the field, my life didn't get any better. I was standing face to face with the heavy wooden doors of the village. The village was closed.

It takes me a while to understand that I had to spend the whole night outside, with lurking nightmares and hungry creatures.

I stand breathless for a while and stagger back falling onto the ground.

How could I be so stupid to sleep in the sugarcane field? I must be the stupidest thing to ever exist.

Mother wouldn't have come looking for me, obviously, I don't think she cares that I'm not at home.

Jimin probably never came out to find me either. He probably doesn't know I'm outside the village banging on the village gate for anyone to notice that someone was outside.

Jungkook? Oh Jungkook... He probably realised I wasn't in the village and be looking all over for me right now.

I mentally write a note to find Jungkook once the gate opens.

The sound of wild howling reaches my ears and sends shivers down my spine. It comes from the mountains, the home of the White Tiger and the White Stag. But in reality, it is just home go the worst creatures we can see.

I wonder if I will impale myself if I climb a tree and jump over the wall.

Wild dogs roamed around, in search of a worthy prey, to satisfy it's hunger. Children of the village had went missing before, found too late. They were once from the village, but were driven out of their homes by being stabbed in the heart.

The dogs live in the fog, they ride the fog, they are the fog. Nobody dared to enter the fog, for it hid creatures, known and unknown, big and small, dark and silent.

Father says that the tigers which found me, were my guardians. They found me and decided to protect a small baby, which cannot do any harm to them at all. They did not eat me, when they would any other. They stood by me till I was found. I mean, they were tigers. The least I would expect from them is for them to protect a baby and make sure it is safe from wild dogs.

I always believe this, because I know that the tigers are good souls, they have no reason to kill me.

But now in the darkness, with no one or nothing to protect me, I can't help but think properly.

The tigers can't be by my side all the time. I guess this is where my life ends. I try banging on the door again but to no avail.

And the I hear something. A whistle. Someone whistling a familiar tune. The voice sounded so familiar, but yet so distant.

Without any self control, I find myself following the whistling into the sugarcane field. Leaves rustle and the wind caresses my face. Soon, I end up walking back to where I started.

But this time, the moonlight shone at the cliff, brightening everything so much more. I felt more calm as I near the cliff. The sound of the waves calm down my heart and my soul.

I almost sit down when I notice something that wasn't there before when I left the sugarcane field.

Fear grips my chest as I back away from it. Was it a ghost? Was it a monster? Maybe a wild dog left it behind? Or maybe... It was there the whole time? Maybe the tigers left it for me?

Hyped up by the thought,I cautiously walk towards the thing.

I was scared for no reason, I believe. There was a Tiger Lily resting on a rock, surprisingly not flying away by the wind.

My eyes then avert to the the words carved onto the rock.

'Keep this Tiger Lily with you

Your life will be guarded

Reject the flower, not wanting protection

Consider yourself retarded'

I pout, at the last part, my thoughts being invaded by Jungkook. It seems like something that Jungkook would write, but, how would he know that I would sleep outside today?

I assume that the Tiger Lily would really protect me and what could I do? I stared at the moon, wondering if it was the last time I would see it.

Suddenly the shadows looked inviting, as if engulfing me in its warmth and comfort.

My eyelids become heavier and close, my arms hugging the Tiger Lily tightly, like there was no tomorrow.