Baby Love

Chapter 33

Shehnaaz POV

Time flies so quickly like it was just yesterday that I came into this mansion which now   probably became my home. The people who were just strangers to me, now became my whole life, My world. How uncertain the life is! 

Holding a cup of hot tea in my hand and sitting on a swing while cold winds blowing on my face, is so serene. The swing on which I am sitting right now is specially ordered by him few months back when I  spoke to him my wish of having a swing in my balcony and the next day my wish was granted. He is an angel in my life.....sometimes devil too but I love his both shades.

My face automatically glows and my lips smile on his own accord even at the mention of him. One and half years passed, With everything happy and blissful . Now I am studying in 12th standard and soon to be adult in few months and my attraction that I thought will fade with time was getting more intensified for him. The way he acts around me, the way he scolds me , fight with me, love me and shower me with all those things that I demand without denying me and make me believe that I am the most important person for him makes me feel so special....so beautiful.

My crush now have become my love of my life.....yes you have read it write...he is my love, my sidharth. I realized this thing when I asked riya about it. She is my own personal Wikipedia. She told me what all happens when you fell in love with somebody, and the things she said was all were right. From then onwards, I know my feelings for him are called love. 

I was so happy like on cloud nine.....and my mind played that 90's song pehla nasha whole day. My face was  glowing that day with the realization. Whole day my stomach was feeling a giddy feeling. I even danced with my puchkoo imaging him my sidharth like whole filmy style.

The feeling of falling in love is so different. From that day I always see sidharth in different light....like he was now my bestest friend, but I also want him to be my boyfriend and then later....husband too. I want to grow old with him till death do us apart.

I also remembered the incident that took place one and half years before where he did that stunt. That was the only time he did something so extreme, different from the other times but he never acknowledged it like it ever happened. He also made me feel like that never happened between us. I wanted to ask him what happened to him that night but he always changed the topic leaving me hanging and to assume what I wanted to assume. 

So I never brought that topic again, and let the things flow as always it has been. Now we both know each other at the back of our hand, which is good thing ,I suppose.

Sometimes, I also think will my love be reciprocated or not....or it will be left unfinished, unrequited? Will my love will find his way to his heart and make his heart flutter like mine whenever in his presence? Or Is it always gonna remain one sided?

Then I myself only answer to my questions yes, why not? My love for him will always remain one sided as I will never tell him, what I feel for him due to my shy nature which pops up in front of him suddenly when I tried  to convey my feelings, and even if I confess why he want to be with a immature girl like me, who even does not have any knowledge or understanding of outside world. Who do not stand according to his standard. I am not that perfect for him like those models who always stand by his side on the cover of magazine or who surrounded him and always try to grab his attention. And on top of that I am  too young for him. 

Thinking these thoughts only my eyes moisten and tears start flowing down from my eyes.

I wiped my tears and again shift these thoughts at the back of my mind which I have been doing for  couple of months now...

"Shehnaaz tayaar ho gayi pata hai na jaana hai party mane, late ho jayenge sweetheart" I turned around to face him ,who was entering my room while tying his wrist buttons. My breaths hitched seeing the Greek god in front of me.