Baby Love

Chapter 34

Sidharth POV

I was driving my car and she was sitting beside me, looking out of the window. Her sweet smell was still lingering in my senses when I held her close in her room and I am not able to forget that. She had this positive and comforting aura around her which is opposite to my cold and intimidating that makes me more attracted to her. There is saying "Opposites attract" and I think it's true.

This is one thing that always have attracted me about her and make me pull towards her unknowingly. She is totally opposite to me in every sense. If I am violent, she is calm; if I am bitter, she is sweet; if i am morning, she is night. We are poles apart but I don't know why destiny collided us and make us meet and built such a bond that I think is quite inseparable.

She considers me right now her bestest friend but I don't want to be that. I want more from her. I want  her to see me in different light. I want  to stand beside her forever till death do us apart. I don't want she  leave me ever, I wanted her close to me. 

I have always craved for someone who who could accept me with all my flaws , someone who could see the real me and not be with me for my money and status. Someone who would hold me at my weakest point, someone for whom I could be able to do anything and everything. I wished to be the light in someone's life and someone who could pull me out of my darkness. I have concluded back then that this is all a fairytale and childish dreams which aren't real.

But little did I know that the person sitting beside me could make this all possible for me without knowing herself.
Shehnaaz....This name carries a lot of meaning to me, now I have realised. I have  got to built these beautiful memories because of her only, after her coming into my life and making it glow and filling it with happiness. She makes me do things that I have never done before but now I am doing since past one and half years. What I feel for her is not just liking, passion or  admiration but love, which is beyond these words. 

Her touch makes me feel alive and my whole body buzzes when her fingers even brush against mine. I have never felt anything like this before. The women that I had met before were either greedy or arrogant. They might be in higher position but they were highly arrogant and hardly had family values. So my perspective towards every women was same considering them all in the same light, but all this changed when i met her and she made me realize, all women are not the same, they can be innocent and naïve too but when time demanded they can also stand for themselves and fight for there right fearlessly.

Without even trying anything too big and just being herself she made me fall in love with her. It hasn't been long but I know I can't stay away from her or even think of her leaving me because it will break me. The urge to always remain in contact with her always burns inside me. Her tears , her smile, her every small thing that she does matters to me and I can't  imagine any day without her .

I want to make her smile , spend more time with her more than I spend now, hold her always in my arms. The concept of love was so foreign before her and now it's practically all I can feel when I see her.

I know, I know , you all must be thinking how, when, even I have no answer for that. But one thing is sure I am in love with her and I have realised it.

I want to make her mine, all mine, mine to love, mine to cherish and mine to everything. But I can't do that, as she does not feel the same for me. And why not, she is so young than me why would she want to be with a older person like me who is not of her age and if by chance I ignore this fact too,  I can't deny the fact that she would also want freedom, the freedom to live and travel around the world, to achieve her dreams not bounded by anyone. This thought always makes me sad and stress, but after that I shrug these all and make god decide what he has store for us...till then I will not confess anything to her otherwise the relationship that we have will be destroyed if she says no and I will be left broken.