If She Fall

Part X

[[ May 24, 12:35 a.m. - Yongsan Iga-dong, Jung-gu, Seoul ]]

Y/N's POV

"Thank you for coming." I said while patting the space beside me signaling him to sit. "I am sorry for disturbing you this late."

"It's okay. Don't worry. Did something happen?" He asked his voice full of worry. I shake my head and played with the flowers I am holding.

"Did you buy them?"

"No, someone gave them to me." I give him a bitter smile. "And I met him."

"I am not sure who you are talking about so kindly enlighten me as to who is this someone you met."

"My ex. He gave these flowers to me as well."

"But didn't you tell me you went home? So how can he be there? And why would he gave you flowers?" Annoyance is evident on his voice.

"I did." I said while removing a petal off the flower and watch it fall to the ground. "He went to our house. My mom invited him."

"Do you still love him?" He suddenly asked and I can feel his gaze on me.

"I loved him." I said while looking at the stars. "More than you could ever imagined." I put the flowers on the ground and hug my knees.

"So why did the two of you break up?"

I turn my head to him and smile, "Because his heart belongs to someone else. And clearly it wasn't me." I saw how confuse he is and his eyes reflect sadness after hearing what I said.

"Did he love you, Y/N?"

"He did. I know he did. But the love he had for me isn't enough for us to be together." I feel the pain from my chest again, almost like stabbing me. "He tried to save us and what we have. We fought so hard. But it made us lose ourselves. So we decided to stop. But you know what's the most painful one after we broke up?" I asked him and he shake his head. "When he realized his happiness is still with someone else."

His face darkened. Showing nothing but pure annoyance and frustration. I small chuckle escape my mouth. He look at me weirdly as if I did something unacceptable.

"It isn't what you are thinking, Yoongi. He doesn't have anyone else when we are seeing each other and he doesn't see anyone up to now." I saw my eyes reflect on his. "He can't love anyone other than her."

"What do you mean. You are making me confuse-"

"His happiness and the one who his heart belongs with isn't here anymore but she took his heart with her when she left. No one can replaced her in his heart. She was his angel, his first love, his everything. And I am nothing but a second choice. A mere replacement of her."

"Y/N, you are perfect. Never ever think you are not."

"But I am, Yoongi. I am." My body tensed up. "I will always be a second choice, an option, a starting point. I will never be someone else's first and endgame. And it's so tiring living a life like this. I am so broken inside and no one can notice it."

"How can you say no one notice it when clearly I am here, Y/N?" His voice full of sadness. "He made you feel so worthless and you still choose him."

"Because I loved him even though he love someone else."

We stayed silent for awhile when Yoongi decided to break the silence lingering between us.

"Why did your mom invite him over?"

I look at him. "Because it's my sister's death anniversary."

"What did it have to do with him?" He look more puzzled. "Is he close with your sister?"