Save Me From Myself ( A Taegyu ff )

9: It's Ok Not To Be Ok

The bathtub was overflowing  with water that was gushing out , pouring over the white marble tiles of the bathroom floor where Beomgyu stood barefoot . He was standing naked in front of the mirror , staring unblinking at his own reflection . The bathroom was encased in darkness , only some faint moonlight streamed in through the windows . Beomgyu gaped at his own grey eyes filled with emptiness , his hollowed cheeks and his chapped lips parted like a gaping fish . He trailed his eyes down and lightly grazed his fingers over his torso . He traced the outline of his ribs that jutted out sharply against his thin chest . 

Beomgyu flickered his eyes back to his reflection in the mirror and he hated the person who he saw , he was weak and frail and ugly . It can't be him , it was a stranger . He didn't recognise those dull and empty eyes that once used to sparkle with life . Beomgyu raised both his hands to touch his face , his fingers were trembling when he dropped his gaze to his lips . Where was his smile ? The same smile that his mom loved with her whole heart . Why does it hurt more to smile than to cry now .

He fluttered his lashes close as a single tear escaped from the corner of his eyes , the laughter of Jaesun and his friends was still ringing in his ears , the lingering feeling of their touch still ghosted over his skin making his insides crawl . All their insults were engraved deep within his heart , the worst part was Beomgyu couldn't deny the fact that whatever they said was true somehow . 

Tears trickled down his cheeks in an endless stream but not a sound escaped his lips . Beomgyu sank down to the floor where the water had created a pool around him . He rested his head against the bathtub , cold water was crawling up his legs but he stayed there , shaking silently as his body rocked with his own sobs . He can't tolerate this anymore , he wanted this pain to stop . Beomgyu could do anything to.end this pain , it is becoming unbearable now . 

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Almost an eternity may have passed when Beomgyu's tears dried out and he mustered up the strength to get up , he was soaked in water completely by that time . He turned off the overflowing tap and wrapped a towel around his shivering body as he sauntered out . Without bothering to put some clothes on first , he straight away marched to the living room where a single cell phone lay upon the centre table . He clasled it tightly and dialled in a few numbers before the phone began chiming . 

" Sorry but the number you have dialled is currently busy , please try again later ..." 

The phone beeped a few times before the call finally ended and once again a deaf silence surrounded him . Beomgyu stood motionless , his fingers still tightly cus the cell phone as he gazed hazily at a distance . He found himself whispering at the end ,

" Appa , please come back ..." 

It was no surprise that Beomgyu got no answer in return . He was still dripping wet , water pooling around him but that was not the tiniest bit of his concern now . In a flash , Beomgyu yanked his hand back and slammed his phone on the floor before screaming , screaming till he lost his voice . Beomgyu collapsed to floor weakly and snaked his fingers through his damp , black locks and pulled them harshly . He spent the whole night crying till there were no more tears left , the broken pieces of his smashed phone were still littered aross the floor , a sharp reminder than not even his father was there for him when he needed him the most.  

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Taehyun snapped his eye open , awakening from his slumber after the bell rung announcing that it was lunch break . He cracked the joints of his neck and rubbed away the remaining sleep from his eyes and pushed himself up from his bench . He waited till all the students rushed out evacuating the classroom that was encased in silence after everyone left .