Save Me From Myself ( A Taegyu ff )

16. Addicted Heroin

He found himself sprawled over the carpeted floor of his living room , his limbs heavy and unmoving as Beomgyu blinked , reality crashing upon like a huge tide . His mind was clouded with a thin mist of uncertainty and confusion as he flickered his eyes around . How did he get here ? 

With a sharp hiss , he pushed himself from the ground and stood upright on his numb legs swaying from one end to other as his head turned dizzy from the sudden movement . Beomgyu felt as if all the energy from him been soaked and squeezed out and the area around his his temples was throbbing wildly , it seems his veins might pop out . 

Beomgyu scrunched his nose in distaste , his breath was foul tinged with an acidic taste . In hopes of clearing up his head and loosening his sore muscles , he leaped towards the bathroom . Quickly , he flicked a switch on and in no time the a bright LED light illuminated the small cramped up space . 

 Beomgyu trudged forwards and grabbed his toothbrush while spreading some paste over it before plunging it into his mouth and after that he turned left and twisted the tap till the water rushing out from it slowly filled the giant marble bathtub . 

Leaping towards the washbasin , he gurgled and spitted the paste out before wiping his mouth clean.  As he slowly shedded away each piece of garment covering his body. His hands travelled inside his shirt's breast pocket and his fingers accidentally poked a small pack that he had no clue how got there .

Beomgyu scrunched that plastic pack and plucked it outside from his pocket , his eyes widening in bewilderment and shock plastering his features as he glared at the contents of the pack . It was loaded with the same white powdery substance . It can't be ....

With shivering hands , Beomgyu poured the contents carefully over his palm , the white coloured powder almost indistinguishable as it mingled on his pale hand like moondust . So beautiful , so tempting . 

 Beomgyu had no idea how the drugs ended up inside his pockets , maybe Jaesun or rest of his buddies had misplaced it somehow . Although he had promised himself that it will be it first and last time consuming this heavenly posion but in the present moment when that magical powder within the reach of his tiny palm . Beomgyu felt himself loosing control as desire engulfed him . He was transfixed . 

Teetering dangerously on the edge of his self control , Beomgyu tore his gaze away from his palm and stared at his naked reflection in the mirror .  His eyes raked over his body in a swift motion , a pained look crossing his face as he traced the lines of his prominent ribs and stark hip bones that jutted sharply against his pale skin . 

Some faded yellowed bruises still marked the expanse of his chest and abdomen reminding him what he was and will forever be , a loser.  A loser , just like Taehyun said . 

Beomgyu silver eyes glinted for a minute secone , all his agony flashing inside them all at once before he raised his hand and swallowed the powder in a single go . He sighed in contentment and stumbled back till his calves collided with the hem of the bathtub . And then he let his body drift behind . 

He falls till his body splashes upon the hot water that sputters out of the tub , pooling around the tiled floor . He shuts his eyes when water closes around him as he sinks deeper into the tub , heaving contentedly as the gentle ruffles of water brush against his hair like a soft caress . He was feeling lightheaded and weightless as he settles in the bottom of that marble tub . Drugs  left his mind to be in a thoughtless state and his nerves thrumming with pleasurable rush . 

It was like he was air-borne .....he was not letting go this feeling , not so soon. 

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