Save Me From Myself ( A Taegyu ff )

15. The End Of This Fu*king World

His legs were moving on their own accord and he find himself running , running hard enough to feel your heart thudding against your ribs and the blood gushing through your ears , your pulse throbbing wildly . Beomgyu wished he could run away from his problems the same way . 

Wind felt harsh and cool on his tear stained face , his shirt fluttering as he galloped along the concrete roads . Beomgyu chest was still heavy with grief , a dull ache coursing from his heart and slowly paralyzing each and every single part of his body with its painful poison . His  thoughts caged him inside their inescapable loop and he wanted to get out of it , at any cost . He thought he will die otherwise . 

The next time Beomgyu got back to his senses , he found himself across the entrance of the Night Flight Club , the flashy neon light signs blinding his swollen eyes . His face was laced in a mixture of sweat and dirt as he glared unblinkingly at the shabby building , a strange expression passing over his face . His grey eyes seemed dreamy and unfocused when he recalled the euphoric rush of those substances making him go crazy and carefree . He wanted that again . 

It was then the temptation overcame him and he stepped forward climbing a three step staircase that will lead him inside that shady club . All of a sudden , a huge hand curled around his shoulder turning him behind and a familiar voice exclaimed in shock , 

" Beomgyu ?? " 

Beomgyu peered down at Jaesun whose feline eyes were blown wide as he regarded him in surprise . His mind still captured in a trance like state as stared straight ahead and tried stepping inside in the darkness of the club but Jaesun had a firm hold on him .

" Hey what are you doing here !! " The other exclaimed . 

Beomgyu averted his hazy gaze to Jaesun , his voice a still whisper when he said  " Is that bartender.....Daniel , working today ? " 

" What ?? " 

Jaesun features were blanked with confusion , his bushy eyebrows scrunching together  gaped at Beomgyu sharply while trying deciphering his motives . 

" Is he in there or not I asked !! " Beomgyu shouted in impatience making Jaeshu shudder as he replied ,

" Yeah but why you ...Hey  Stop  !! " 

Jaesun snaked his arms around Beomgyu's waist as the raven haired began hurrying inside your entrance and pulled him away at a safe distance from that building . 

" Beomgyu what the hell are you upto ! You shouldn't be here , did something happen ? " Jaesun asked , his voice laced with dubiousness . He frowned when Beomgyu stayed quiet and his grey eyes seems empty and lost . 

" Are you fine ? " Jaesun asked  . 

Beomgyu flinched when Jaesun placed his hand on his shoulder , his lips finally forming words and he mumbled incoherently , 

"  I need that again ....I want drugs . " 

A deaf silence dawned around them after those few but impactful words left Beomgyu's lips in a low whisper . Jaesun face was morphed with disbelief , his eyes blown out and his mouthing hanging wide open . Damn , he hadn't expected this loser to come begging for drugs so soon . He didn't complain thought , the quicker , the better . 

" That night was the first time in my life I felt free . Free from my pains , miseries , my past , my thoughts , I ...I want that rush again . Wanna be numb  from this endless suffering , just once more . Please ...."  Beomgyu pleaded his voice laced with desperation as he clutched Jaesun's hands .

" See Beomgyu it's a big risk . You shouldn't ..." Jaesun voiced out his fake concern but Beomgyu instantly interrupted him and stated , 

" I don't care anymore I just want this pain to go . Let me go Jaesun , I beg you . Please understand me ...." He squeezed Jaesun's hands , his fingers diggers deep into the flesh of Jaesun's palm .