Alpha & Luna

Chapter 21

The next few days somehow go by both sluggishly and in a breeze. After the meeting with the Solstice Committee, I'm immediately bombarded with tasks and queries from other pack mates. Word had spread that the new Luna was ready and willing to help in all matters. And as a result I barely have time to breathe.

My days follow a similar pattern. Wake up. Work. Lunch. Work. Dinner. Bed. And rinse and repeat. The amount of work I have assigned to me is phenomenal and sometimes I have to take a breath before beginning just to ensure I don't pass out from the stress. Not a minute goes by that I'm not doing something pack related. Either I'm on the phone arranging Matings and festivals or I'm in meetings discussing the management and expenditure of the orphanage.

Most nights I'm too exhausted to do more than feed myself and Pie before I head straight to bed after a quick shower. But every night before closing my eyes, I muster all my remaining energy to call Sebastian while I cuddle up to his pillow. And every night he doesn't answer.

Where is he? I haven't spoken to or heard from him in days. I don't want to be clingy but I am his mate. I just need to know he's alright. And truthfully I need some comfort of my own. Since becoming Luna I haven't had anytime to write any new stories for Victor's Adventures and I miss that connection to my Dad.

Just the other day, when I was looking through the toy catalogue deciding what to buy for the orphanage, I came across a picture of a father holding his daughter. In the image, they were both grinning from ear to ear at each other and my heart ached at the sight.

I would give anything that I have or will ever have just to have 5 minutes with my Dad again. Just to see if he's okay wherever he is and to tell him that I've found my mate. That I've found somebody to love and that he doesn't have to worry about me anymore.

When I had these thoughts, I wanted to sob and I wanted my mate. I had called and called his cellphone repeatedly that day but he hadn't answered. As the dial tone sounded, his words from our first few days together played through my head.

It's okay Leslie. You don't have to be brave in front of me. You can cry it out and I'll hold you for as long as it takes.

You have me and I'll never leave you.

Sebastian had said that with so much conviction but where was he then? Where is he now?

In the end, after failing to reach him, I gave up and cried on my own. Alone. Pie sat curled around my feet as sobs wracked my body and tears streamed down my face. In his own animalistic way, the dog was trying to give me comfort and for that I was grateful. But I needed my mate. I needed his presence to calm my inner turmoil. Without him, I was a lone sailor lost in a sea of grief.

As Sebastian's voice mail clicks on, I get the sudden idea to call Brian. If anyone knows where the man is it would be his Beta.

I hurriedly dial Brian's number and wait for the werewolf to answer.

"Hello?" Brian answers sounding winded. As if he had just finished running.

"Brian. It's Leslie." I say into the headset.

"Leslie. Hey. Whats up?" From the other end I can hear the sounds of music and machines. But I can't decipher his location.

"Have you seen Sebastian? I've been trying to call him for days but he hasn't been answering." I say with clear worry in my voice.

"Fuck. He didn't tell you. That fucking jackass." Brian swears into the phone and I hear the sounds of a door being opened and shut. Then the music is cut off.

"Leslie, he left."

It takes me a full minute to process his words. Left? Sebastian left? Without telling me?

"When did he leave? And to where?"

"He left days ago. He's chasing the rogues to see where the trail leads. The attacks have become more frequent since he got back. I don't know where he is exactly but he left me in charge. I'm so sorry Leslie. I thought he told you. Fucking idiot." Brian replied.

He left. He just left without telling me. Without even leaving a short message. I'm his mate but he doesn't think I deserve to know this information. My heart is filled with hurt at these thoughts and I don't want them to be true but they are. He just doesn't care.

"Leslie? Hello? Leslie, you there?" Brian worriedly questions into the phone.

"I gotta go Brian. Bye." I say and hang up the phone. Cutting off whatever Brian was about to say. I really don't want to talk to anyone right now.

As I stare at the moon through the window, I feel drained of emotion. I want to cry but I can't. I've cried so much already and there aren't anymore tears to spare.

How can I love this man who hurts me so much with his indifference? While I've been sitting here worried and stressed, he's been away hunting rogues. Granted, he's away on work. But all I need is a 5 minute phone call or even a text message telling me he's okay. And did he see none of my missed calls? Was he not worried about me at all that he didn't even bother to call? To ask how I was doing?

Before falling asleep I glance at the clock on my bed side and spot the date.

I'll be going into heat soon and without Sebastian here. I don't know how I'll get through it.